I was in a happy mood today. For once in a long time I laughed and smiled, rather than so many tears that seem to fall anymore. I was posessed by boredom when I got home from school so I made myself go to sleep and so now I just woke up. Theres these little things that I do that I hate myself for. When I do them it's like someone else. And now I ( Read more... )

I just got back from Lousiville. I went to see my sister. She had a baby and he is so pretty. She has'nt named him yet but I think it's pretty cool that he was born on Valentines Day. But fuck Valentines Day. It's bullshit. Well in my case. I miss Stephen. No matter how hard I try to stop loving him I still do. My heart aches without him. I wish ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here in 2nd block listening to this realy pretty song. "I'm not suppose to love you anymore" I love it so much. I am on my adderall and i am verry emotional today. I hate this. Everything hurts. I don't know. My mind knows that it's time to say goodbye but my heart still hangs on. I just can't beleive that it was that easy for him to ( Read more... )

I just had a reality check. yes, a good one indeed. I'm not suppose to love Stephen anymore. I should'nt love him anymore. He does'nt care about me so why should I care about him? I still care about him. And wether I want to love him or not I still do. But thats okay. Because it is better to love than to hate.
love all ~Meg~

He left me in love all alone.

I just got done brrushing me teeth!! Fresh breath!!! I did'nt go to school today. I did'nt go to bed untill realy late last night so i did'nt feel like getting up this morning. I pretended to be deathly ill and i slept all day... litteraly all day. I did'nt get up untill about an hour ago. I am still sleepy.But well thats all that I have to say for ( Read more... )

I just got out of the shower. Yes indeed I feel so muh better! I did'nt shave but thats okay because my legs are just prickly. Anyways I just thought that I would share that with everyone. Anyways me and Tj are gonna have a get dumped party togther! (not Teela's TJ he's just weird) but yea. Its gonna be fun. We are going to bake a cake together. It ( Read more... )

I was in such of a good sleep and for some odd reason I just happen to wake up. I am starting to get sick...my nose is running and stuff. I hate it. If I could run fast enough, I was hoping to catch it. Haha (that was so cheezy that it was funny) Then theres the whole plummer thingy "My nose is leaking...well then you better call the plummer ( Read more... )

Hey hey. I am sitting here in fourth block and i am realy realy hungry!!! I did not take my adderall this morning so I am happy. Not drugged up!!!!! it is a wonderful life!!! anyways i want some food!!! I can happily say that I have ate all weekend and i hope that i have gained my 5 pounds back. Jordan thinks that i am crazy... well that was the ( Read more... )

I am sittig here at Tyras house waiting for her to get back because she went outside to take her dog to pee. I am so bored and I really don't have anything to say. I wonder if "really" i spelt with one r or two r's? i think one but i always end up typing two. sorry. but i am gonna go. Love all ~Megan~