I woke up around 2:30 this morning and I tried to go back to sleep for about an hour and I could'nt so I went down stairs and ate a bowel of chocolate Lucky Charms and then I smoked a cigeratte and listened to Stained untill around 5:30 and so I got ready for school and here I am now with 23 minutes to spare untill the big yellow bus comes and ( Read more... )

Yea, my day turned into a realy realy bad day. It was going pretty decent untill I got to PE. Of course I was drugged up like always and they put me on adderall to calm me down so that I could concentrate, not to be physically active. My body just gets numb and I stair into space and when I try to be physically active my body feels like it's gonna ( Read more... )

I am sitting here in 2nd block. Zoneing out on my adderall once again. Today is not as good as yesterday but thats alright. I'm still standing without tears. If that means anything at all. I am realy hungry but once again i can't eat because of this being drugged up deal. Adderall is an appetite depressent and it makes me sick to eat. But my tummy ( Read more... )

Drifting off into a world where your lies used to dazzle me. Memories that now seem like a dream, strangle me. Tears that have dissapeared with the rain. Awakend by your beautiful face, taking my breath, a nightmare that plays in my head. They say time can ease your pain, all I have found is reality slapping me in the face. Our star has fallen out ( Read more... )

I just got done cleaning my room. It's realy hard to do when your zoned out on fucking adderall. My body started to shake. It was like when i first got put on it. I hate this shit. It's there fault not mine. I was just really hyper but i guess thats a "problem". Well now I'm always drugged up so if it makes them happy. And the sad thing is that i ( Read more... )

I was in Lousiville all weekend, I love it up there. Theres actually socialization up there. Fuck Grayson County this is some bullshit. Yea well anyways I just got up a few minutes ago and I wanted pizza for breakfeast so now I am cooking pizza. (It's taking forever!!) I honestly think that I am almost over Stephen. Well so long for now.....I'm ( Read more... )

I am sitting here in 2nd block being realy bored. My face is breaking out so bad but it is only because I am getting ready to start ragging. Yippee....I'm so exited......realy......i realy am.....um. I am on my adderall and it's making me feel that weird way. I read my horosope and it told me that I should call this situaion quits or truth. So ( Read more... )

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
• You must tell #20 people about this game.
• Stephen is the one that you love.
• Shawn is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Teela.
• Cindy is the one who knows you very well.
• Tyra is your lucky star.
• Still Life is the song that matches with Stephen.
• I'm not suppose to love you anymore is the song for Shawn.
• ( Read more... )

You hurt me...after you said to me that you never would. You made tears fall from my eyes and were'nt here to catch them. You tore out my heart and left me here to bleed all alone. You threw all of the memories that we made into a fire and smiled so watch them burn. I can't beleive this. All that you was and who you are now. Love and hate seem to ( Read more... )

I tried to go to sleep but then my nose got all stuffy and stuff. I can't sleep but gosh I am so tired. But thats alright I guess besides the fact that I have to get up at 6 a clock in the fudging morning. Fudge school man. It sucks, and I have 2 hours after school detention tommarow. That sucks but in a good way I don't have to come home to the ( Read more... )