so i had a dream the other night...i was at a family party with all my friends there as well and i announces to them that i was getting married. and my husband was someone i expected. but not like cooper or andy...like lagit....then i thought about it. there has always been one guy who i always end up looking at when i'm with him and saying to ( Read more... )

so pretty much all of my friends, except my camp friends know my plans for this summer. well i'm starting to rethink my decision. camp people are supposed to make you want to come back to camp, to make you feel like you're "home", to make you so happy you pinch yourself just to remind yourself that this is all real...camp is a place where everyone ( Read more... )

so this weekend once again wasn't how i thought it would be. first of all i decided to go to the JC one because i thought that most of the people i trained with weren't going to be there because they are all SCs and in college...they were pretty much ALL THERE. i love them all to death but i hate them as a group because they're really cliquey and ( Read more... )

so every year is the same....go broke buying presents for all my friends, decorate, listen to christmas music for a month, eat a ton of swedish cookies look in the mirror and go 'blah i need to swim like right' watch christmas movies go to my grandmother's sit akwardly for 5 hours go home and just feel like crap ( Read more... )

i have never been so upset before! what the HELL is his problem??!?! he has absolutely NO justification in the way that he is acting! the way he treated me hurt me...alot because i have never been treated so poorly before and honestly i don't think i should ever be treated like that because lagit...i know i'm not a mean person. i do nothing to ( Read more... )

So aaron was trying to act like nothing even happened again tonight so I was determined to get out of aubby. So I hung out with greg and kyle for a while singing Disney songs >33333. Then Erica came back from the party and we went to rusty’s. same as always, nothing special. I love being over there though because when I’m over there it’s like as ( Read more... )

blah. so things are yeah. i'm ready to go home because i just need to get away from aaron but at the same time i don't want to go home because i love hanging out with erica, greg, kyle, dave, katy, sam ETC. so last night i was talking to erica about the issue that has been going on for a while now but she turned it around and said that she wanted ( Read more... )

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So i'm trying to just let time take it's course. a lot of people are telling me to just move on from my aaron situation but i just can't. i've been screwed over before...enough to make me expect getting screwed over but there's something different about aaron. i feel comfortable with him. at first it was my best friends at home telling me to not ( Read more... )