i ate last night. ugh. but whatever prom is this saturday so nothing but liquids, like im sticking to this! i haveeee to. :) im excited to just get prom and all the bs over with. once thats done with schools pretty much over :). ps. diet lipton green tea is so good

surprisingly my scale said 112 this morning. so im thinking im like 115 now. i actually did eat though i had 100 cal small popcorn and this 100 calorie balance bar and some asparagus (sp) but today i walked in the park for 15 then burned around 200 at the gym. so i dont know. im taking a lax tonight ah ew not fun. prom is THIS weekend. realllly ( Read more... )

so ive finally been hitting the gym again, and i know that my own scale is off but it said 113.5...and i went to the gym and it said a little under 116. I WAS SO HAPPY. i was even wearing shoes and everything!! last time i weighed myself at the gym which was like a month ago it said 122...what a difference. see you guys, look at what happens when ( Read more... )

so ive been doing SO good lately and today fucked it up. i had to do community service and they had made hot dogs but i said i didnt like hot dogs and one of the girls was like why arent you eating? and i just feel like i have to eat in front of people so i had chips, and like a lot of them. but i went to the gym after burned around 200, my stomach ( Read more... )

i have definetly been slacking off lately but today i did really well. i can tell ive gained weight and im not happy. back to serious mode...

so im dating this guy, i suppose i can say were together now...but i have no sexual desire what so ever. and its really taking a toll...were getting in fights constantly over it, its just i never want to do anything. and i dont know WHAT to do...its hurting me as well because its hard to show that i really want to be with ihm also on a physical ( Read more... )

tomorrow im starting a 3 day liquid fast. just want to maintain the weight now..i need to start my excersise videos again. since my friend has told me shes going back to her "old ways" not eating, purging, etc...weve been spending a lot more time together and its been good i dont think about food and vice versa...having someone there who ( Read more... )

weighed myself this morning said 111.5..not sure if thats right but whatever. i felt a TOTAL binge coming on i just really wanted something sweet, so i had 100 calorie kettle korn. i mean why deprive myself...i dont wanna binge and ive been doing super good lately!!! so far i had half of OJ-50, special k red berries-about 120, and then the kettle ( Read more... )

well one of my best friends now knows about my anorexia. she knew all along. and the funny thing is, i knew that she had known. she also has gone through bulimia and anorexia so coming from that standpoint it was pretty obvious to her. we had a really serious talk, and she told me that shes here for me. shes actually been covering up for me, since ( Read more... )

:( i got my prom dress. its way too big, i dont even know why i got a size 6 but im going to get it taken in. trying on other dresses was depressssssing. my stomach is pooching like no other. so im doing a liquid fast until whenever i can stop. i need to stop eating. i also like green tea now (i HAVE to put splenda in it, i just cant deal with it ( Read more... )