things are going pretty good. cant complain.

there are gallon size zip locks full of meat and potatoes in the refrigerator. ginger likes it. and i like her.
darya hates me. but i sure like her alot. i saw camille and elizabeth and rachel and ryan and lev this weekend which was nice. got a fun hat. john and i played monopoly till 3:30 in the moring and its still in my room waiting for my roll.

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Well, birthday.
woke up after very little sleep, ready to go to tea and crumpets. Then back home for confort.
Then putting on real shoes and going to the firing rang with jon-fan. Shooting at paper targets. 44magnum, 9millimeter.
hello to friends. It was the best group of people. everyone i needed. we all sat around the fire and conversed. and then ( Read more... )

the little old man with the marshmallow white hair asked me if it hurt when i fell from heaven. and if i was tired from running through his mind all day long. Then we went inside and stripped off all his clothes and did a gorilla dance and sat for 2 hours as we drew and pretended he was our senile grandpa ( Read more... )

Ali leaves monday. life will soon go back to the usual craziness. now there is a stripper pole in the studio. I'm here alone because he is drinking beers at the pier. Its cold finally. and Halloween was fanstasic after all. I'm looking for a cheep flight to Florida. and i want to buy some shoes. I need to go take care of alot of business this week ( Read more... )

For a second i didnt know what role i wanted to talk on being angry. didnt know what kind of girl i wanted to be. i wanted to smack someone. but now its back to normal life of spreading and making love. Things are really going so well. 90 good 10 frustrating.
Rachel is home for a few days and things are nice. we went on a really intense adventure ( Read more... )

i guess we needed to talk. now things are going to be good. better when he's drunk. more understanding if so.

we went and saw the darjeeling limited tonight and it was so good. SO GOOD.
clayton was nice and excitable.  made me feel like sunshine.
people need to start confirming for our trip. Or i'm leaving without you.
racel needs to come home.

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The day before today, i slept in and then went to draw. Later we cooked and then clayton and jessabeblleea came over and we ate and told scary stories by the fire. We all forgot we were in Santa Monica. we could have been 100 miles into the wilderness. The little things scared us. He was very polite. and the boy inside my phone was mad. which was ( Read more... )

Last night everyone was upset or depressed. and it just was consistently getting worse. we stayed up till 4 in the moring and he told me how important i was. I looked like a little alien becuase my eyes were swollen.

My heart hasn't been in it, so i wasn't interested, I'm just not into feeling bad right now and it was producing to much stress. so ( Read more... )

my hair is beyond disgusting right now. its great.
"somehow you are the girliest and manliest person at once" ha!

and my brain is doing the most interesting calm thing right now. semi meditation. semi shock. and semi infatuated. I want to send darya a box thats full of paint and crayons and money and food. i feel heartbroken, yet so loved. i cried ( Read more... )