i wonder if i should even let myself feel when im frustrated or hurt. that makes no sense ( Read more... )

This feels a bit strange, but I'll give it a shot anyway. It's 1 am and I'm usually fast asleep by now. The girl is content and sleeping like a log in my bed. =) It certainly does make me smile. I can't remember the last time i wrote anything, even on paper. Words aren't pouring out of me like they used to and i feel full with emotions that i can't ( Read more... )

I hope i'm just having a bad day..maybe it was the two days without my meds. but I feel like the situation is worsening...in my mind anyway. you see, i'm missing something. i feel empty. cold and scared. i push the feelings deep down. hopefully i'll never have to deal with them ( Read more... )

i have this feeling that i will pop up on friends pages all over and people will be like, umm who the hell is he? i'm still here, still alive ( Read more... )

christmas was great. we had tons of people in my house..all at once. i thought i might die for a second but, i survived.

i have NEVER in my life found someone so capatable with me. i have never loved any woman this much. i'm beyond happy.

i love how some mornings when i wake up i feel the presence of god so strongly. and the earth is bright and bitter with snow. but i'm inside wrapped up tight with the love of my life. i couldnt ask for more right now. thank you.

i don't know if i'm ready for this. i don't think i am. something made me jealous. i'll be damned if i know what it was ( Read more... )

i'm going to update soon, i promise.

i just bought 2 grams (count it, TWO) of the craziest dro for 10$. Because i'm ill like that...ya know?

good looks dude, i appriciate that shit.

liz is put up for sale in a german reptile shop

i'm suffocating on my thoughts. i'm dreading the next second that i have to think. i assume the position of strength and i pray to god that he'll help me through it. you need me more than i do right now. i've been through this before, i wisper to my body to quit being selfish. i'm giving it my best shot. then my throat tightens and my body tingles ( Read more... )