i really wish i didnt do this.
i regret every moment we spent together.
i regret all the things we did together.
if i would have know i would feel like this...
i wouldnt have done it.
i thought i would have regretted this.
but, i really wasnt thinking at the time.

><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><>><><><><><>><><><><><>><><><><><>an uphill battle ( Read more... )

how can you tell someone you love them then leave them when the going gets tough? how can you tell them you will always be there and then leave without a second thought? how can you be so cold hearted? how can you do something liek this? she loved you and you loved her. what happened? why did you change all of a sudden? why did you show no emotion ( Read more... )

i'll bite my lip and close my eyes as i take this blade to my wrist tonight. no one knows the pain i hold inside. no one understands the loneliness i feel. i wish someone was here to tell me everything would be ok but, in the end no one really cares ( Read more... )

sitting back, flipping through the yearbook, thinking of all the people that i havent had the chance to meet in high school. it seems so weird that you can go to high school with a person for 4 years and never really get to know them. i sometimes wish that i had taken a larger part in my school. but then, i wouldnt have been able to do some of the ( Read more... )

my uncle had a stroke today. just found out like 5 mins ago. they think that he is going to be ok.

fuck this!!! i am over everything ( Read more... )

i am so glad that i only have 5 days left of school. i cannot deal with high school drama. every stupid fight is pitiful and pointless. why is there so much drama? it makes no sense. people need to chill the fuck out ( Read more... )

so...senior skip day and there is not much i have actually done today ( Read more... )

your twisting my words ( Read more... )

before i can preach to others about what they should do with there lives they need to know a few things about me. i am far less perfect than i pretend to be. i am fucked up in the head. there are so many things wrong in my life that i have barely been able to handle myself. i will admit to doing self-destructive things and wanting to kill myself. i ( Read more... )