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strange and muddled vision of a world that hopefully will never be
I had a dream just now that really freaked me out. I thought I'd better write it down. So, it starts off we're older, but Gavin stabbs me with some scissors and thinks he's killed me. Then he left, when he returns I'm fucked up and possibly dead but I'm still going to kill him too in my head and I pull the scissors out of my back and am holding ( Read more... ) -
The rain has finally stopped.
I woke up early today feeling pretty sickly. Whereas, usually that would be a negative thing I tend to find that on the verge of anything and everything good or important in my life I get ill. I just do. I'm pretty certain that it's a psychological problem based on a very deep emotional fear of...everything. I work through it sometimes, and ( Read more... ) -
fairy-tale days
For the first time in a long time, if not ever, I must say...Life is good. I'm happy, and everythings generally ok. Me and Joey are dating, and it's so good that I'm quite literally scared to death. Thing is, I'm not nor have I ever been the most innocent of women. I'm hurt a few more men and people in general than I'm comfortable thinking ( Read more... ) -
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Tonight I worked all night at the Haunted house, 13th Gate, and there is a man there I have quite a crush on. Tomorrow is Scott and Ben's Halloween party, and this man, Joey, is going to be my date! Tonight, though, at the end of the night he asks if I'd mind driving him home...and I of course do. On the way there he holds my hand for a second ( Read more... ) -
Well, hello there.
It's so funny to me when I remember that this journal still exsists. I'm sad that blogging has destroyed the world of on-line journaling... taken over and what not. I'm just hanging about at my mother's place. They've been out of town, giving me free rule of the homestead. It's been good. I've been cleaning for an hour or so...and it's already ( Read more... ) -
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Well, Happy Valentines DAy to all of my bleeding heart friends. Hope it was fun for you guys. I oddly enough spent it with Gavin... nonromanticly of course, just dyed my hair and watched Mulholland Dr. What a fucked up movie, then I sent him home and took a nap before work. I had the most ridiculous dreams due to the movie before sleep thing... ( Read more... ) -
here I am again.
Well, hi. Things are going "ok". I keep sleeping my life away. I feel like I have two lives that intersect only during the last hour or so before I come to work. The one life being when I'm not here, and the other when I am(here being work)... you see, I don't get to "go to bed" until morning time, so I wake up in th emiddle of th eday, and ( Read more... ) -
I fucking hate him.
I hate Justin. He isn't over his ex but he treats me like shit over mine. He tells me horrible things about Bailey... but he fucking...oman, I hate this kid. -
because I got two hours and nothing to fill them with...
1.What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before ( Read more... ) -
gotta just keep talking through those tears.
So, things are interesting. They're good, I suppose. Me and Justin are doing pretty well, he's pretty fantastic sometimes. he has his moments. then again... he has other kinds of moments as well. today he decided to be unnecessarily mean to me and suggest that I'm a slut... which I would understand, if I had sex with other men. Being that I ( Read more... )