i don't know what the heck is going on. its too complicated and to soon to say anything about it.

idk. i felt like people avoiding me in some ways. grr. i badly need some company. to keep my mind occupied is all.

Life-Suckers. *laughs* its not being emo or whatever. not that. honestly, its just trippin’. well, basically, life-suckers is when you’re being pessimistic about your life. how you complain about it, and it totally sucks right? haha. basic thoughts about it. YOU cant blame a person to feel that way. we have our own ups and downs. and people have ( Read more... )

bad fate. its been clearer everytday of my life that it shit the hell in me. could i just hate the world and leave this?  i dont like it anymore. it fuckin' sucks.

i lack out of sleep, i got to hurry up with this fucked up class of mine and yet, i ended up AGAIN, nothing happened. NO CLASS to be exact. fuck. i could have sleep a couple of hours and ( Read more... )

its like i was a spinner. spinning over and over again. plus, I’m upside down. I’m getting dizzy with everything. So cliche to say this but I’m really lost. I don’t plan anymore, i don’t have plans in my life anymore. I take whatever is it for me to take. I don’t know really. its so confusing. oh, i really thanked myself for i am not suicidal. * ( Read more... )

i have to say this: i don’t get you of shouting out here in the cyber world that you don’t care about what they tell about you but then, you were so affected by them. if you only look out yourself as the third person, you could clearly see that what you were saying about them is like telling yourself the same. too bad when you expect too much of ( Read more... )

never play with fire. you might got burn.

well, i got burnt dammit to hell. i was really not expecting for him to come back to me kneeing or what. its just that, I’m still not strong enough for him. i cant take it all anymore. its so unhealthy to be with him and at the same time, soothing other bad illness in my life. i was pretty addicted to the ( Read more... )

i thought i was fine, yesterday. but scratch that, i am still not okay.  later today, im anxious again. restless and something’s bugging me. arghhhh. i bloody frustrated about bloody everything. i started my day fine, cleaning the house, do the dishes. it was the least i could do for my mom, while she’s not here. *minimize voice into whisper* i ( Read more... )

I’m supposed to be sleeping right now or maybe snore my ass off and dream of anything my mind would like. A mind has the widest concepts or ideas could occupy. Earth has no chance to beat how big and wide the mind is but sometimes, it could be narrowed into very tiny set of pathways you can imagine. Yes, it depends how you’re mind works, how you ( Read more... )

Every night we practice to die, and then we wake up live again.