It's difficult. It leaves you with some messed up sort of PTSD, kind of like battered woman's syndrome, only you don't experience physical abuse. Rather, you experience verbal, emotional, and psychological abuse... which is actually believed to be the most harmful kind of abuse by the experts. Either way, I haven't really wanted to talk about it ( Read more... )

I hope to feel you tonight. You're the only reason I've managed to sleep lately.

Isn't it funny how we always seem to love those we shouldn't? That most of the times, the ones we love don't love us? That the ones that cross our minds constantly and haunt our dreams barely give us a second thought? Isn't it funny... how much it hurts sometimes?

Feeling pretty crappy right now. Like I'm not good enough for anyone. I get horrible stares from my ex at class (thank god it's over and hopefully we won't be in buildings around each other in the fall), I talk to people, particularly guys, and they talk to me for a little while and then it's not really a priority to them. I flirt with guys and ( Read more... )

I honestly have no idea how I'm going to last 6 weeks until this medicine works. I can't eat, I don't sleep. I'm exhausted, I'm constantly nervous and anxious to the point where I can hardly stand it and that makes me nauseous. I've unintentionally lost 5 pounds in the past 2 weeks. I'm absolutely miserable and I just don't feel like I'm going to ( Read more... )

This song, after my mom showed it to me, I realized describes my newly ended relationship way better than I ever could. Only I wasn't the one who left. But the boy/girl roles are definitely accurate ( Read more... )

You're keeping in step
In the line
Got your chin held high and you feel just fine
Cause you do
What you're told
But inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold
I can't believe what just happened. But that's ok, it's one more person who won't respect me. I've gotten used to this by now. No one was supposed to know that stuff ( Read more... )

So, I just finished Tears of the Sun (this is probably the third or fourth time since it's been out that I've seen it) again. Good movie as always. However, this time I started thinking. Which I just think is dangerous nowadays ( Read more... )

She watched tentatively as he moved away from the window and came towards the bed. He walked so gracefully. She scanned his every movement as he drew near. Her hands tugged the cover upwards, feeling exposed. She was unsure whether she should be angry, frightened, or happy. He had saved her, but he had done so much more. It was easy for him to spot ( Read more... )

Fresh, cool metal touched her skin. Freedom. Finally, she would escape. Sleep would engulf her forevermore in the peaceful blackness. Nothing would hurt. She wouldn't cry. She would just sleep. The knife sliced withering skin easily. Croaked gasps of pain escaped her, but she did not stop. No, she dug deeper, determined that this would all end. ( Read more... )