so. i guess i'm going to death cab. gonna pick up some gay indie dudes with emilee. haha!!!!

so my time is almost up. finally. for the past 10 1/2 hours i have been watching 2 1 1/2 years olds and a 10 month old. i am freakin exhausted. i am in desperate need of a shower. i want to do something tonight. but you won't call. like usual. you frustrate me so much.

today two girls from ca fresh that i kind of used to know im high school came into cal fresh when theresa and i were working. and they were talking "oh i just transferred to cal poly" and "statistics is kicking my butt" and blah blah. made me feel so stupid. i should be in my third year of college already. well i am but it's like my first. if i ( Read more... )

finally feeling okay with the whole thing. no more crying or regretting. it's all good.

okay well sort of. i'm getting there.

i need to run.

"It's been a bad day,
another bad day and I cross my heart and hope to die
these dreams of yours are 'gonna fly."

obsessed with this song. story of my life.

[07 Jan 2004|01:16am ( Read more... )

this is the worst. i feel like i have already failed on madison. this isn't how it's suppost to be. i fucked up and she is paying the consequences. she is never going to have a "real" family. her dad will live somewhere else and she most likely will not get to see him on a regular basis like she should. she never even got a chance. so not fair and ( Read more... )

i will always care. even through all the bullshit. i can't help it.

i love my baby.

a nurse i work with offered me the nicest thing ever. she made my day. people like her make the world better.

i invented a smoothie at cal fresh. offical status right here.

my tattoo itches. crusty!