I miss Bryan ( Read more... )

sometimes its so hard to remember the past when everything in the present is so different. I feel as if i haven't changed, but is that true? did everything really just change around me? today is Bryan and i's six month anniversiary. it seems so short and yet i feel like i can't remember what i did and what life was like day to day before. i ( Read more... )

everything is so different going home and acutally being there for a while. i knew it was going to be a little different but i didn't expect it to be like this. i think its a bigger deal for the people to be going home than the people who are already there and the person is going to see. that and then everyone i know is in school or are away. and ( Read more... )

insurance is a gamble that you hope you dont win.

when did i become bitter about things? i cant seem to let things go as easily. i've been mad alot lately and that just isn't me. or i thought it wasn't. its like once i'm hurt i don't know wether to cry or just get mad. and i end up usually doing both. its almost like all my bad qualities have come out this year and i don't know how to keep them in ( Read more... )

i just finished my 20 page story for creative writing, and i'm kinda disapointed. its way to depressing. but there isn't a way to make it happier. its one of those stories were like nothing good happens the entire time. i don't know where it came from i don't belive i'm depressed. or even sad.but writing is supposed to be like an art for exposing ( Read more... )

oh boo hoo to what all i've written. i'm in such better moods. yay. i am so busy and so tired. homecomming and dressing up has gone fabulously. its really great. i'm excited to see everyone this weekend. yay (again)! i can't wait until i can start getting more sleep though, but it won't be for a while. i'm looking forward to saturday mornings.whoo ( Read more... )

i need to stop thinking, it confuses me.

for one tropic thunder was amazing even if there werent very many people there to see it. sooooooooo funny. i have to remember to buy it once it comes out. and second everything i said yesterday was made okay. hehe =)

i've been so on edge lately. i don't even know why. it seems like one wrong word and i get all defensive..i just need to relax. its scary to think that almost everyone i know is going to college. even nick. he's like the person who's there when no one else is. what am i going to do with out everyone. i don't even get to be in the conversation when ( Read more... )