why does she always have to ruin EVERYTHING?
i am so sad right now. i don't even know what to do with myself.

holy FUCK, Dexter! how am i supposed to go to bed in time to be rested for work after THAT?!?!?!
i would like to say though, that i really didn't care that much for R's acting, so as tragic and disgusting as that was, it opened a looot of doors!
gonna go try to shake all this fucked-upness off me and fall asleep. aye.

stress breakouts have become the bane of my existence. i can handle most anything else with some level of grace but i have literal meltdowns every time this happens. especially when it happens right before big events, which it always seems to do ( Read more... )

as someone who has been personally affected by breast cancer more than once, i am so thankful for ANYthing that spreads awareness and gets people more educated about the disease. this is just the sweetest thing, i was tearing up by the end of it as hard as i fought not to ( Read more... )

fernet branca is good stuff. super excited that andy's creative talents are shining through on our walls. orientation at godaddy tomorrow, really nervous. can't wait for this tedious semester to be done with. it's weird having jim and nancy visit and ask permission to go into "our" (their) bedroom. the dogs only like me when i have food to give ( Read more... )

hearing about jesse has put me in a serious funk. what's weird is that i think more about his girlfriend than him. i don't know if that makes me a bad person or not...all i know is that i can't stop picturing andy next to me in bed, not waking up. it's completely taken over my head the last couple of days and i wish i could get it under control. i ( Read more... )

i'm very excited for the following things:
new job at Godaddy starting in a few weeks
Christmas dinner at the new house courtesy of ME :)
hopefully having clean, sanitary, pretty carpets again soon!!! this is probably what i'm most excited for. haha ( Read more... )

jesse, i think it sucks that you're gone. i'm going to miss your smart-ass comments and your big heart. i hope it didn't hurt and i hope it wasn't frightening. and i hope your girl finds some comfort sometime soon. i can't even imagine ( Read more... )

I just took a much-needed nap and ended up having an AWFUL nightmare. a lot of it seems stupid written down but it really, really frightened me. The whole dream had this creepy, morose undertone and there seemed to be a green-filter on everything, like in the movies when everything looks dingy and faded. in any case it really shook me up and ( Read more... )

i hate biters...those opportunistic people who use every word you say to steal parts of your personality that may benefit them and make them look better to other people. i hate them more than i hate cucumbers. which is saying a lot, believe me ( Read more... )