I am finding it more and more difficult to live in this world and live for God. I feel too distracted. I don't know what this means, but I know that I must discern it. Today I had an overwhelming experience of love and wanting to give my whole self to Christ. Morning, day and night I want to give it all to Him. But I am too distracted by ( Read more... )

SO today is the Memorial of St. Mary Magdalen. This lady has one of the greatest conversion stories in the whole history, well that is what I think. Anyhoo... in the 12th Century there was this huge devotion to her in the Church. Lately, I find that Mary Magdelen is one of those saints that is taken advantage of. She is great and we know she is ( Read more... )

I want to stop shedding tears for you. I want to stop feeling like I have been less than the friend I promised when you were the one who cut me out, the one who broke the trust. But I feel the need to fix it, yet in my heart I can't forgive but I want to. I miss you, I miss our friendship... Why should I even care, why do I care? God has placed ( Read more... )

I just want to crawl in bed and sleep. I feel totally defeated. My self esteem is shot. My confidence is null and void. I am just a shell of a person, doing the motions of life. I have nothing to live for. My job sucks, I am only doing it for the pay check. I have no friends. I know I know, everyone is going to be saying, well i am your ( Read more... )

The worse things is that i can't even express how i am feeling. I want so badly to be a saint, to be holy, but i am not even close. I feel like for so long I have been living a lie. If I am so in love with Jesus what am I doing. Worse of all, I look at my friends. How have I lead them any closer to Christ. In almost every circumstance, every ( Read more... )

Go figured... more messed up and confused... whateve.

I can;t handle this, I just can't take it anymore. The evil that stricks this world is unbearable to my soul right now. I spend hours crying for nothing in particular. Maybe for those who can't cry. I feel as if I have this huge weight on my chest. When is it going to go away. I don;t know how much I can take it. This constant evil is making ( Read more... )

Has there ever been so much evil that you just want to explode. Today, evil is coming from everywhere and it is so hard to keep up with, and deal with. Every direction something, sad, opressive and wrong is happening. I just want to cry for all those afflicted and all those oppressed by this evil and cry for allt hose evil doers. Man - o - man ( Read more... )

I just came to the conclusion, that often times I do way out wacky things for my friends to make them feel special and loved. I realize that I do this cause I so often don't feel special and loved and that doing it for them i wish and hope that one day I could be treated the same way. It goes back to love languages. We usually talk in the ( Read more... )

Super frustrated with work, which makes me super frustrated with life... I am having a super hard tmie with everything... keep praying, keep trusting and believing. What was suppose to be my fun celebration graduation weekend is turning out to look like a weekend i am not going to enjoy at all... whteve.