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[ihitonyourmom]

So im pretty fuckin drunk as usual, but ive realized that life is pretty fucking lonley. i never wanted to believe that but its true. the only person you have is the one thaat your "with" and if you dont havet that then you got nobody. the only people ive met out here are people that want to fuck me or they hate me. i know the ones that hate me are

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[kfc4deb]

oh shane. i know lj post are the windows to the soul, but in your drunken post (though there's nothing wrong with it), i feel like i can feel your...your feelings, for lack of better expression. you're definitely growing up out there and it's simultaneously amazing, yet heartbreaking to see. but i totally understand the pessimism. especially with love. it's elusive and sometimes, it just doesn't seem worth fighting for. i want to give you amazing words of wisdom, but i'm not sure i can right now. just don't be fake. it will only hurt more. you can be pretty and you can pretend, just know what the real truth is when all is said and done. i love ya lotz and keep your chin up!

[ihitonyourmom]

i love ya too. and yeah growing up sux i miss be the dumb poor slutty sophmore kid in speech just rtying to impress everybody.

[smileyqtmeg]

jeez shane, you totally are channeling me or something. i totally was thinking the exact same thing the other day. well, just on a smaller scale since i haven't BEEN in love yet. =)

but i get what ya mean. heart ya. watch the booze. it kills brain cells, ya know. =)

[ihitonyourmom]

yeah lifes a bitch and booze is too but who needs brain cells?

[smileyqtmeg]

true that.

[lovesjesusfish]

Shane, Debbie (the wise one that she is) is right again. It's great to see how you're growing but mostly my heart broke as I read this. I wish I could be where you are and be your friend and show you what it means to have someone you can be real with. Pretending really does only hurt. I did it for years, Shane. Only since coming to college have I realized how much pretending you're okay and faking it to impress people or make them like you or whatever just tears you up inside. Save the pretending for on stage or in front of the camera because you're damn good at that. :-) I think love, more than anything else, is a choice. You don't just automatically love people and they don't just automatically love you; you have to choose to love them everyday, whether they're going to be happy or sad or nice or bitchy. I hope you find people there to love who will love you for the amazing man that you are. I love you, Shane. And if we're ever in AZ at the same time (Christmas maybe?) we should definitely hang out so I can give you a hug

[ihitonyourmom]

oh daughter/girlfriend/mother i miss you too. yeah pretending probably isnt a good idea its just easier. i love getting advice from you. i hope things are going well for you. and i hope i see you this christmas. love ya

[stablinsecurity]

Shane I know just what you need...Jesus

[ihitonyourmom]

shut the fuck up you whore and get out here.

[stablinsecurity]

shut the fuck up you sadist and meet my good friend jesus

[livefreedieyung]

YOU SON OF A BITCH YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS WHO THE FUCK AM I A PIECE OF SHIT. WHO HAS BEEN THERE THROUGH ALL OF YOUR DAMN REALIZATIONS ME MOTHER FUCKER SO WISE UP COME HOME AND WE WILL GET SHITFACED AND I WILL LISTEND TO ALL YOUR PROBLEMS WITH THE WORLD RELATIONSHIPS AND ALL THAT JAZZ. U JUST NEED TO BE AROUND THOSE WHO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOU AGAIN. I NEVER THOUGHT SHANE WOULD WANT TO BE CODEPENDANT HAHAHA. NOW GO SOBER UP AND FUCKING DEAL WITH THIS SHIT SOBERLY AS WELL DONT JSUT PUT IT IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND DAMN YOU AER AS BAD AS ME.

[ihitonyourmom]

sorry i know your there for me i just felt lonely out here and i was fucking drunk. o btw james my roomate says he's my new bestfriend and whats to fight for the title haha. I miss you brotha.

[livefreedieyung]

yet you sti there and bitch about how your friends suck in new york and you wanna come home. So um yeah who is at home me fuck him. You are coming home to your real best friend he doesnt even know what a killer monkey is. I will figh thim to the death just because he doesnt know all that much about you. Maybe more of the side that you feel weird talking to me about cuz of personal reasons but we are passed tht. Call me ill tell you more reasons later but i dont wanna type so there