felt like writing again......since the last time i posted here. honestly i feel different, not in a bad way, but just different. i feel like i've found my focus after some time away from the "world" so to speak. I have to get my license more than ever now since i got a speeding ticket AND a ticket for driving without a lisence, and if i don't fix ( Read more... )

aight....finally i admit it. I've been sitting in the dark for about the past few minutes thinking about how i should write this.....or what exactly am i feeling. (i got off topic, i'm supposed to be admitting something else lol?) i'm lonely, it finally hit me. yes, i love the solitude of my room, but it sucks sometimes that i have to sleep alone. ( Read more... )

 Best said by D-R-E. that's how i feel about alot of people in my life right now mannnn......tired of muhfuckas wastin my damn time or ignorin me until THEY'RE fuckin ready. i think i'm too nice to people, because i'm gettin shitted on alot. people keep takin my kindness for weakness and this is the result they're going to get. i'm not callin on ( Read more... )

 i love that phrase.....and i'm not going to translate it....you have internet, google it damnit!!!! anyways, i'm all moved into my cute little room....and to be honest, i like the quiet, the hum of my laptop (a dull hum at that) and being able to hear my own thoughts............it's 12:50 AM and i'm not even tired. (i need to finish unpacking.... ( Read more... )

I don't get it.....my concept of "friends" is changing again...i'm thinking, i have been thinking also, about if some people are worth keeping in my life. the first thing that angirly came to mind was "cut the ones who are hurting you more than helping you off" and yeah...i'm right to an extent, that's easy to say, but carrying the action out isnt ( Read more... )

another abstract title.  it's from a song. it's the weekend, yet i'm bored. if i had money i'd be out tonight. i was invited to the club, but i'm not really intersted in that. (i don't really do clubs anymore) to be honest, i just wanna get drunk lol. either that or high again. it's wierd, i've been sleep allll day, and i'm still tired. i guess ( Read more... )

 been a while since i've been back here. i think i decided to go back to writing about my life like ai used to. things have been crazy for a while...i broke things off with korey, and even though i probably SHOULD go into a huge things about that, i'm not going to. too damn much to type and the story is still being written. my plans right now? move ( Read more... )

I'm losing it...and you're just going to sit back and watch...i'm questioning everything, and you're just going to sit here and watch. how can you do this? what happened to love?? care? being therefor me!? i'm feeling sick, i'm losing my grip on my life, things are FLY-ING out of my CONTROL! and you just sit....sit back and watch ( Read more... )

the title means "only you will do" more or less. i'm going to be honest, in my relationship (yea, i've had a boyfriend for about 7 months) i think things are falling apart, and things have changed (thanks to ME causing drama by cheating in the first place) i feel like my BF and i can't trust eachother (he goes through my phone, questions my friends ( Read more... )

the song "Sanctuary" by Utada Hikaru is playing on my roomates ipod that i'm listening to. if you've played Kingdon Hearts II you know what song i'm talking about. it's the theme song of the game. i love this damn song, shit i love the artist also, her songs are so damn deep, even in Japanese it hits you and you feel the emotion she's trying to ( Read more... )