happy 2 years to me.

When you don't know what to feel, what do you do when your deciding? You want someone to kiss you, and hug you, and hold your hand and by god i have that, so what's the problem? When you have something, you always want something better, why am i not satisfied? My walls are up and they aren't coming down. so when do you decide ( Read more... )

I totally just typed a whole page and the connection was lost. that's fucking great. so here's the jist of it ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm seeing Chris again on Saturday. This isn't a relationship, and I doubt it will be one, so why am I acting like it is? He's way too good for me. And I don't see it working. What I'm afraid of is hurting again. Josh fucked up my sense of relationships so bad that I can't trust anyone! Ugh, I'm hopeless. In my AA program, I have been taught ( Read more... )

I should just let it go, right?

Ok, so I went on the first real date i've been on in about a year and a half. I feel like a little 12 year old afterwards. You know butterflies? They hadn't come to me in like 2 years. Well, theyre back. And you know when you get them when they touch you? I got those too. It was pathetic. At first, he was teaching me to play pool "correctly" and ( Read more... )

So I'm off until Friday to house sit at my sponser's place. Im staying with Dez and I'm scared there might be a few problems. We were at the drive-in tonight and I realized some little things that might get on my nerves for 5 days. First off, she acts like she's superior to me in some way just because she's 18. She's been 18 for a few months, and ( Read more... )

Someone who meant a lot to me died last week while I was on vacation. I was in shock for a few days and then got really stressed out. After all the shit going on with moving and selling and the guys car i hit, I broke down. I was about to go into my AA meeting and I just broke the fuck down. Thank god for Desiray, she took me out of there and ( Read more... )

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've been so lonely. I'm finally at a point in my life where I don't feel I need anyone to make myself happy, but I'm so lonely. Maybe it's because I havn't even kissed anyone for almost a year. My love life is completly dry. I think I just want someone to hold me, not nessasarily a relationship. But it's ( Read more... )

I am a member of 4 cliques of size 4

• ilike2makeulie, killthecure, xhilikusx, pretty_gurl
• ilike2makeulie, killthecure, xhilikusx, lubricalia
• ilike2makeulie, killthecure, pretty_gurl, imcrawingbroken
• ilike2makeulie, killthecure, imcrawingbroken, lubricalia

stolen from shayla