i was watching father of the bride by myself after a long day. it was growing darker. the movie got to the scene where annie's family meets brian, her fiance, and he was saying all these sweet things about her, how he loves her, how he thinks she's so talented and how he wants to marry her and have kids with her--all in front of her parents who ( Read more... )

i just want to die, i just want to go to sleep and not wake up i hate myself, everyday i realize i'm so spoiled. my parents pay for my college i get to go to spain in the fall and he doesnt. theyre making me pay $400 dollars for late fees because i never remind them when they need to pay my tuition. i got so mad i went in my room and cried. $400 ( Read more... )

it's 3 a.m. and i'm at the station, which can only mean one thing: it's resume tape time. rodney hung out with me while i put it together and gave me advice. i love editing. it's getting slightly easier to look at myself on the screen, but i still hate the way i look ( Read more... )

i'm in the middle of, really, my only week of summer break where i don't have to work or go to school and i'm having a breakdown. it's because of this damned resume tape. my tape...is horrible. so i've been frantically trying to make it better. every day i've woken up early, slapped on a ton of makeup, put on something stuffy and professional ( Read more... )

[MY apartment]

we got back together, btw. today was 4:20, hitler's birthday and the day of pot (::rolls eyes::). i had lunch with dh but not before he showed me some interesting flora he's got growing in his closet. oh, how i want to write about it...we went to mcalister's where my total came to $4.20. $4.20 on 4/20--i saved the receipt ( Read more... )

[my apartment]

he just came over "to talk" and we're definitely through. he came because he didn't want it to end with what he said.

i'm now crying and listening to modest mouse's "broke."

devi and drew walked in while he and i were talking and were giggling and it broke my heart ( Read more... )

[my apartment]

i think i'm still a little tipsy from earlier. i woke up groggy to damien and dack talking about the latter going to have lunch with a woman damien slept with years ago. i...was not pleased. damien wasn't invited but, for some reason, he kept asking himself out loud "should i go?" i told him that he should go, even if he wasn't ( Read more... )

[damien's]

10:45 on a saturday night, i drive home from work and cry. the shuttle time between my workplace and home is the only time/place i find to cry. if i cry at damien's, then i'm picking a fight; if i cry at work it's unprofessional and i don't want to cry at my home because i want the negative feelings left out of there. so the tears, they ( Read more... )

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[my apartment (!, shocking, i know.]

friday: nothing. helped damien pack, watched arrested development at my house and loved it.

saturday: cleaned, evaded work and drove to dallas.

sunday: hung out with the fam, lunched with jen and her david and her mother ( Read more... )