excerpt from kellys blog ( Read more... )

im not going to lie. it hurts. it hurts a hell of alot more than you could possibly imagine. in one of the most trying and crucial times in my life, ive been abandonded. i dont care if i sound pathetic. i needed my friends and nobody could be there for me. how can everyone act like things get better? how can everyone act like everythings okay ( Read more... )

my last 10 days ( Read more... )

I WISH IT HAD BEEN ME

kelbys deer hunting all weekend with his poppa. im sad. and i miss him.

So. I talked to Austin. And he blames me. He doesnt understand. He doesnt want to know me. He doesnt want to see me ever again. He said I never called, never came to see him. He doesnt believe his mom wouldnt LET us come. He said he doesnt want to be who he was- and apparently all I was ever good for was a drinking buddy. Even though Austin and I ( Read more... )

and furthermore, he acts like im a fucking psycho stalker. and is all secretive about where he lives, and wouldnt give me his number and.. just talks to me in a really degrading way. and then he texted me his number at like 3 am yesterday morning. and slept over last night. and i know hes confused. because i know he loves me despite how much we ( Read more... )

i have something bothering me. I am very upset that Kelby is keeping me a secret again. He changed his number and has told his friends hes not seeing me anymore. And I know its because hes ashamed. Because his friends dont understand. But its not fair. I was his dirty little secret for 2 years. I dont want to do that again.

i dont know what to do

I JUST WISH YOU DIDNT HURT ME.

kelby and i have been fighting. so yesterday, i threatened to move in with mike. cos kelby hates mike. and kelby changed his number. and then he came over and hung out with me last night. and we ate olive garden. and i cried alot ( Read more... )