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[For Jason]
In her nearly eighteen years, Lux Cassidy has been through a lot of genuinely horrible things. There came a point a very long time ago where she learned to steel herself against them, to dig in her heels and straighten her spine and take it on the chin. For the most part she's been able to cope this way, whether it be through loss or violence. She' ( Read more... ) -
[For Jason]
Never in Lux's life has she been so grateful to get her period. Even with as messy and inconvenient it is, she's been consistently glad for it ever since she became sexually active, but the jubilation from this particular period far outstrips them all. She'd really, genuinely thought for the past few weeks that she was pregnant ( Read more... ) -
[For Jason] Post-Tea Party
Lux won't admit it, even to her own self, but she's waiting. After wandering around awhile and stopping to talk to Tim, she'd headed home, pulled off the fancy dress she'd apparently put on for no reason, and waited.
There's a cold and knotted up place in the pit of her stomach telling her that he won't come. That he won't have even noticedSitting ( Read more... ) -
[For Baze] Dated to the wee hours of 27 April
For the entire walk home, Lux keeps it together. It had been easier to do in the clinic, feeling like she needed to be strong for Jason. It wasn't as if she'd been the one buried alive, and it didn't seem fair to cry all over him or make a scene. James had been there, so eventually she'd left, and let the numb feeling carry her down the winding ( Read more... ) -
[For Jason] Christmas
She keeps it together until she's absolutely certain Baze isn't following her anymore. She tamps that emotion down, shelves the total rejection of the past two months until she knows for sure she's alone, and only then does she let go, a petite girl in hastily-donned winter wear over her pajamas, plunked down onto a tree stump in the middle of the ( Read more... ) -
[For Jason] Post-TR Day
Lux doesn't have a watch. She'd not been wearing one the day she turned up, fresh from a midnight swim, and she doesn't know what time it is aside from that it's late ( Read more... ) -
Hold on to yourself.
It's a long way down to the place where we started from.