well i found out that justin is sneaking behind my back to go see lauren, i found out from jessica. she came to school the other morning and said she saw him in laurens store again. when i asked him about it he got all mad and he was like i'm not doing anything wrong, you cant be mad at me, you camt be mad. fuck that, i have a fucking right to ( Read more... )

well exactly one weak ago i found gizmos dead body up the road from my house. he had holes in him this old woman said she saw him nad another big dog get in a fight. trying not to cry is hard but im slowly getting over it. i miss all my friends, at least i have afi in 28 days. justin and i are fighting more i think we need some time apart, but ( Read more... )

GIZMo is never comming home, i dont want to cry but it does hurt. im waiting on someone from justins house to come pick me up, were going out to eat somewhere and then i have to sit through another exciting band practice. i had something really weird happen to me last night, i had a sex dream about my friend craig, and it makes me feel bad ( Read more... )

okay so im still at home and its eight o seven, god im such a loser. im trying so hard not to feel sorry for myself but whats the point someone has to feel sorry for me. im the biggest liar i know, i lie to everyone even justin, and i should feel bad for it but for some weird reason i dont, munda says its because i dont have a conscience, maybe ( Read more... )

okay im gonna try this again hoping my computer doesnt fuck up again, tomorrows elizabeths birthday and i cant be there with her, gizmo ran away hes been gone all day, and justins out with john, as always. why do days have to be so long and boring? im still doing this whole no make up no fixing my hair thing but i feel like i might be kind of ( Read more... )

justin continues to talk about how everything has fallen apart since allin left. he has to stay home all weekend because he has d.u.i school hes really sad, i told him to go hang out with michael but he doesnt think michael would want to hang out with him but he doesnt know that michael really wants to be his friend he thinks the whole worlds ( Read more... )

everytime i try to type in this damn live journal i get so pissed off because some thing fucks up i just wanted to say how much i love everyone because im such a fucking sap! actually im a bitch a big one so beware