I have a weird internal thermometer, it seems. When other people are cold, I'm burning. The other day, I saw my friend go outside in a jacket, ear muffs and gloves, so I thought it was cold. But I went out in a sleeveless jacket and capri pants and was fine. My room is almost always it seems colder than anywhere else I go in the house. And I like ( Read more... )

Random thought I frequently have is how, while I don't conciously try to, most of my music library ends up being twisted into my memories or just seems to fitmy life perfectly. And then I feel incredibly self involved. I have so many songs or bands that I just liked, but one instance turned them into my life narrators. I know that's only because we ( Read more... )

Or I should say, people without depth make lousy poets and I feel like I've become added to the collective of mindless, small talking, inconsequential puddles that I so very much hated. I still hate that some people get through life without giving a real thought to anything, but I can't remember the last time I really thought about my predicament ( Read more... )

Do whatever the fuck you want. I want you to do whatever makes you happy. I won't keep you from it. That's how you last in the world. When you have something to hold onto. Just let me sleep and pretend that you cared. That I didn't. Good night.

Sometimes I wonder if that person ever thinks about me or this place or anything that made them happy. I really can't do anything for them, because they need to find their own happiness. That's what I always believed. You need to find your own truth, make your own decisions, stay true to yourself. I still believe it. But I've also developed a ( Read more... )

If it were up to me, I'd never leave the fucking house again and I wouldn't talk to anyone new. I barely get along as it is. I wouldn't really miss anyone because the few people I would want to talk to, I would. I was talking to someone today and it suddenly passed through my head how much I hated talking and wanted to never speak to them again. A ( Read more... )

I'm just tired, like all of the time. It's really stupid. I also wonder when I am going to stop discovering things about myself. It seems like every day I've learned something new about myself and it usually comes at the price of my emotional and mental stability. But whatevs. That is overrated anyway and I wouldn't give up my awareness for ( Read more... )

I listened to him all day. I do not regret this. No matter how young I am or old I feel, he always fit into whatever is going on with my life. I love him and he will be on my death playlist. I haven't even started at the one. I'm still working on my life one. Thank god for music. I have no clue what I'd do without it. Seriously. I have an addiction ( Read more... )

I really want a car. Especially since yesterday, my stalker on the bus gave me a stuffed animal and the day before that he had given me a card that said he was my best friend. I was really tempted to text one of my friends to drive me, but I didn't. Dude freaks me out. I've had a certain song stuck in my head all day and I keep listening to it. I ( Read more... )

I really don't want to talk about it.