Nine years. No one reads this, so no one asked or acknowledged. But that's ok. It's not something most people I know know about. You're never prepared for that awkward sting in your chest that pops up from time to time. When welling eyes catch on a sob, and you think, where did so much time go? Would I appreciate you if you were here? Things we'll ( Read more... )

Still happy. By myself. Totally ok. If things change, coolz. If not, whatevs. Just documenting. Sometimes I need reminding.

I miss kissing ( Read more... )

You do it to me every time.

You were my everything, which, upon reflection, was probably the problem.

I love when other people can fit my life into little sentences. Hurts less that way, than when I try to do it myself.

Hey BTWs. Happy 10 years LJ. So weird. I knew I'd have this thing ten years later, even if I couldn't know what ten years would look like, or do to me. And no one's here to cyber-celebrate with me, but I think that's how I'd rather have it.
Just me.

Here's to documentation.

What doesn't kill you makes you wish it did.

Thinking this way will only drag you down. But damn if there isn't a little truth to it.

I hate that I can only think positively when I'm drunk, but I need to keep this frame of mind. I don't need a single other soul. I would like one for sure. But I don't need it. I don't. I need to stay where I am, Happy all by myself. The social anxiety....well it could use some work. But tonight was like exposure therapy. My anxiety was through the ( Read more... )

I can't believe how happy I am. Silly dates and silly people and silly actions don't wreck me like they once did. I am allll by myself and I actually like it. A lot. I thought I knew what this was like before, but I was only fooling myself. I can make decisions! And it's not terrifying. I actually like that too ( Read more... )

I want to lay outside and smoke illicit substances, listen to freelance whales and the like, look at the stars and intermittently make out. Especially if you're a girl. Let's hold hands ( Read more... )

Hello, there should be more advice about dealing with depression when you're stupid and worthless, so here is a self help exercise ( Read more... )