ok. so i havent updated in a while. and the past couple have just been negative! so yea. i'll update now ( Read more... )

there will always someone better than me. someone that will get what i want. someone that will know what to say. someone that is more outgoing. someone that is happier than me. someone that doesn't have to work for something. someone that is prettoer than me. someone that people see more than just friends. someone who's life is what i want. and i ( Read more... )

why must dreams be nothing but dreams? it's a way for our sleep to tease us. my dreams are everything that my life isn't. it is what i wish my life could be. people are different. last night was amazing. and then i woke up. and i can't stop thinking about it, him, them, us. man. why can't dreams be reality ( Read more... )

lets see. i graduate tomorrow and im so excited. it hasnt hit me yet though. i guess it will hit me as august approaches and i know that i dont get to do what i want to do. i have to settle for the worst. the one thing i promised myself that i would never do. i hate myself. i hate that i cant take a stand. i hate that there is nothing i can do. i ( Read more... )

sooo.....the past two weeks have been really good ( Read more... )

and now i must make the decision. the one that will change my whole life. everything will change when i say yes to one of them. but which one will it be? the one where i will have the comfort of a best friend in the bed next to me and it being close to home. or the one that is in southern florida that is what i truly want to do but will leave me ( Read more... )

The only time we are truly happy is when we are day-dreaming about future fantasies. Fantasies must be unrealistic. The minute you get something you don’t, you can’t want it anymore. To exist, desire needs absent objects. So desire supports itself with crazy fantasies. Not because you’ll get it, but because you are doomed not to want it if you do.

the six weeks is over. good in some cases. bad in others. but hey....1 more to go ( Read more... )

wow....6 weeks. 6 weeks and it will all be over. scary? yea. exciting? even more so. these 6 weeks will define me as a high school student. these 6 weeks are all i have to leave nsa with a good name. leaving isnt the scary part. lord knows i have been in school for 13 years and im ready to leave.. the scary part is knowing that i will have left ( Read more... )

"Our Years Together ( Read more... )