I almost hate to say this for fear of ruining things, but I feel as if I love him more than life itself. I never thought that I would meet someone who shares my views, who's as willing to listen as he is willing to talk. Someone to share my pain with, who understands me quite possibly better than I do myself. We moved away and moved on hoping to ( Read more... )

So i'm moving to cali and i'm taking brad with me. for those of u that don't know he's my ex b/f from high school. i haven't seen him in 2 years and we just recently started talking again. I love him to death & couldn't be happier that he's back in my life. i know this may sound crazy but i feel like i could spend forever with him. he meant ( Read more... )

I haven't thought about Jamie since before I had to go to the hospital. I don't care about Jamie any more. I talked about him the other day I realized that I have no feelings for him. It was a long 5 days in the hospital. With nothing to do I thought. I thought about a lot of things. I decided I want to write a book. I think it could help people. ( Read more... )

So Matt has a girlfriend now, so that option is totally out the window. It's kinda funny tho, becuase her name is Robin too! WEIRD. I don't know why, but while I was over at Ann & Mile's last night I could help but think about Jamie. I mean he was upstairs last night & I really wanted to go up there, but knew that it wasn't a good idea since I was ( Read more... )

I've found that Jamie is always surrounded by all of these girls. But why would he say that he liked me if he wanted nothing more to do with me. Although he told me he thought I didn't care and that I didn't like him. That's exactly how I feel. If only I could talk to him. If only I were able to just go upstairs. Maybe everything would be better. I ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm not as pissed off as I was the other day. Actually at the moment I'm not pissed off at all. Although I don't really feel all that great. I got to see Mike for awhile after I got off work. That was fun. We went to hideaway & got fat. Only not really, cause neither one of us are fat. It's always comforting to be around Mike. I can talk to ( Read more... )

I've come to the conclusion that I should never have kids. I can't even stand to take care of dogs. I dunno maybe its just the fact that they won't go to the bathroom outside. I mean they go outside and go to the bathroom, then they turn around not even 10 minutes later and go in the house! What the hell. I dunno. I'm really irritated right now. I ( Read more... )

So Jamie didn't come by the apartment at all today (the upstairs apartment). This doesn't really surprise me, but somehow I was still hoping he would. I really felt like giving him a hug today. I know he needs one. He also didn't call today like he said he would, but that doesn't surprise me either. I bet today was really hard on him. That makes me ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a really hard day for me. I don't know why, but it was. I was really depressed all day and all I felt like doing was crying. I had to get my shit together for work, so I had to pretend to be really happy. That sucked. After I got off I hung out with Kyle. I hadn't really seen him in like 2 months. I wasn't allowed to talk to him while ( Read more... )

So, it's been a couple of days since I last saw Jamie. I had the opportunity last night, but I was trying to be kind to someone else, so I failed to go upstairs. As I later found out my kindness was rewarded with someone trying to have sex with my leg. I should have just gone upstairs! I have this odd attachment to Jamie. I don't know how to ( Read more... )