Lord, why is this SO HARD?! I am trying to detach myself from him and it hurts, why God, must I feel this way? I mean, it's not like I married or even DATED him or anything, but yet I long to talk to him?! I guess cause he actually gives me attention?! And that he sees me for who I am and doesn't judge me...please God, give me your grace, wisdom, ( Read more... )

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Lord, show me how to fall in love with you and only you. I want to only desire u. I don't want to want a husband and think about my future. I don't want to screw up relationships around me because I am so desperate for love and affection. God please heal me. My heart and and my soul. I want only to see u. Give me patience and close my eyes. U ( Read more... )

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well, i am kinda sad and just bland tonight. Which really just sucks cause its thanksgiving until 4 minutes. I dont know..i am just really being convicted about my life right now. I really havent been spending anytime with God lately, nor reading the bible. like, i feel like such a hypocrite. I love God...but i just feel so distant from him right ( Read more... )

Well, living with my granparents has been especially hard these past few months with Nanas alzheimers degrating her memory rapidly and her every day skills. She has been bed ridden for the past month or 2 months now because she was falling, her body couldnt support her anymore. Depressingly, i have had to watch her degrade. Its been really hard, ( Read more... )

Another cool thing happened this weekened. I was debating whether or not to put it on here but i figure, its ok. I have to decided to commit 6 months to no dating, and not even close to dating. I have just realized that is one area in my life that i need to just give to the Lord. I know it might not be easy but i know the Lord will reward me in ( Read more... )

I was just looking at all of my journal entries and i am so thankful that God has brought me through so much these past 5 years! wow! I see that God is truly faithful and that He has an awesome plan for me. I also have realized that i went through a lot of guys...wow. After jonathan, that was the end of the line for me. It is also sad to think that ( Read more... )

Well..school is school right now. im just wandering i feel like..and i hate it. i dont know what God has for me anymore, its really sad. i really thought/think He wants me to lead worship but i mean, what else is there? i cant figure it out and i hate all the classes im taking at school. what do i do, where do i go? i dont want to take the wrong ( Read more... )