Goo Goo Dolls ( Read more... )

When I was a child, I very quickly had to learn to accept death as part of life. My parents were both very active in the AIDS foundation, and as a result, many of their friends were dying. When I was six, my father died. We moved to California to be closer to my grandmother,who became much like a second parent to me. When we had trouble at home or ( Read more... )

Victoria went on a walk today. Frustrated with the nature of man she could take it no more and decided to get out. She wound up in that park. The one she had gone to so many times before. With you. With almost all of you. In that back garden of trees and shrubs. Where the bench sat, surrounded and unseen from the road. She sat there, thinking back ( Read more... )

Last night I went to the Fez. I had some talks that made me realize a few things about my life and about my friends. I heard necessary words. From the mouths of my friends and my own lips. Lately my misanthropic heart has been turned by so many people. I used to look at myself and my interactions with people and think to myself, "I'm acting." I ( Read more... )

Wednesday, July 13, 2005 ( Read more... )

Picture me. I am bare foot. My feet are dusty. I am wearing a crumpled frumpy white dress, blue jeans. I look like a demented white trash cyber bride. And I am smiling. Because I know exactly how I look. And I don't care. I have reached all new levels of boredom. It's great ( Read more... )

LOVE is a want ( Read more... )

It's funny how sometimes you wake up and everything is perfect. Time is moving at a beautiful speed and nothing is left undone. Then an inanimate object or a tree gets in your way. Like register tape, caught in a register. Or a window timer, that records how long each transaction takes. Or this tree, that has weird cotton puff balls, and they get ( Read more... )

I am going to the beach tomorrow. I want everything to get better

Can someone please tell me what the hell is going on with me? I am saying or doing all these things and I've stopped giving a damn how anyone reacts to it. And I don't think that I feel bad about it. I am just wondering where it came from. GAH!!