I am a person who usually puts others before myself. If I try to help someone and it goes awry I feel so damn guilty about it that its all I can think about. If a friend goes down the wrong path I can't help but think that I could have somehow prevented it. I put all this weight on my shoulders and typically it ends up crushing me. I admit that I ( Read more... )

SO. This is the longest day ever. I just finished working seven days in a row, and this was supposed to be the day where I am incredibly lazy, relaxed and generally in a good mood. Now that we have set the stage, I will unfurl the drama ( Read more... )

I am going to stand up and say, or sit down and write, that I am tired. I am tired of putting my energy into people, dropping everything to help them or be with them when they need me and getting nothing in return. Even when others are telling them that they are wrong I am right there at their side. Supporting them even when they are a little wrong ( Read more... )

Last night was very random.

What DA fuck?

I am back. I have moved, I still live in Escalon, but I have moved. Computer has finally been set up...yay. Seeya later.

So last night, amazing fun. Went to Lazer Quest and played two games. The first one, was fun. I shot a decent amount of people and got shot a decent mumber of times. The second game. Well. There were five of us, Steve, Chris, Steve's brother, Ed, and myself. Steve thought he was so awesome because he kept going around me in circles and shooting me ( Read more... )

So, I have decided to start putting extremely vague headlines in my livejournal. Sound good? Thought so ( Read more... )

Yay. I love to drive. Got to today. I am getting better at it. Hopefully by fall I will have it down. I almost bought a dress today. Strapless. It looked awesome on me, but I didn't have enough on my gift card, so I am going back for it. It is the first time I've ever said, "Ihave to have that dress."

So last night I got to practice my "stack things on sleeping people" skills. The basis of this skill is to be able to stack a lot of things on a sleeping person. There are two factors to being able to do this well. One, finding people who are asleep...deeply. And two, being able to precariously balance as much stuff as humanly possible without it ( Read more... )

My "daughter" called today, and said she had to go to Modesto, and I said I'd go ( Read more... )