i have been feeling really down lately. i broke up with bryce becuase i needed time to think. i needed to figure some things out and it was better if i did alone. i was having mood swings andwhen he would call i would get mad and want to argue with him. I was just stressed out with school my grades have slipped. i hadnt talked to ashley in a week. ( Read more... )

I started going out with bryce. he is so cute and i really like him a lot. Well i went to tucson for a few days and i started doing it again. its been 5 days. today i didnt have any and i was going crazy. i have been in the worse mood in my life and i just want to cry. i hate this.

I have been being a bitch to some of my friends lately. im not sure if i feel bad. cara really pissed me off this weekend.she told me on friday that she would do the breast cancer walk with me on sunday. She told me that she would come over sat night after october fest. well i kept asking her if she was still coming and she kept saying that she ( Read more... )

I dont know whats wrong with me.Everytime i like somone i tell them and then i just stop likeing the for liek no reason. It just feels like im trying to push myself to liek somone. I mean i do liek them but the emotion and all that isnt there like i think it is. i lose intrest after i tell them i liek them. I hate it. i just want to have feelings ( Read more... )

They sent my mom the note. and im grounded. it sucks. shes making it seem like it was my life and thats all i did. shes so dumb. i ddint do it as much as she thinks. i wasnt addicted. now shes givning me drug test and all this shit its gay.

today at lunch kacey called me to go sit with them. so i did and they went and did there coke. and i went to the bathroom with them but i didnt do it. and today in 6th hour they came to get me. and i had to get searched and they found a lighter. they started saying that i did drugs. they said people that use carmex are people that are doing drugs. ( Read more... )

I changed my mind. i really dont want you to talk to me. i can care less if i ever see you again. Im done waiting for you. tonight i realized your not worth my time anymore. im sick of thinking there might be a chance you will talk to me. What you need to do is grow the fuck up and stop acting like a fucking pussy. i know i screwed up but god damn ( Read more... )

I tried tlaking to him and he didnt respond back. I had a feeling he wouldnt.I just thought maybe there would be a slight chance he would. hes not ready to talk to me. i just hope someday he will be ready.i want him to tell me how he really felt. Ashley and i were talking about all the things i did to him and now i understand why he hates me. i ( Read more... )

I have been thinking about him a lot lately.i was talkign to my mom and instead of saying mike i kept saying his name. Every time i hear Panic! at the disco i cant help but think of him.i was cleaning out my dresser last night and i found pictures of us. Last night i had a dream that i was living with liek 3 guys and 2 girls and i would kiss the ( Read more... )

I let eveverything build up,it finally cought up with me and I exploded ( Read more... )