This weekend was so crazy. alicia and i got chris to buy us some vodka and we got really drunk. i got so drunk i threw up. i have never done that before so it was funny and i started laughing. i went to go wake up my brother and he put me in bed but i got sick again. he went back to bed and i tooka shower with my clothes on. i threw up liek 3 more ( Read more... )

i talked to him a few times since them but nothing special. i havent talked ot him in a few days. i hate going from talking everyday to nothing. why cant we be friends? and matt idk i told him something trying to get everything out so we can be friends but all he says is ok. so its kinda hard. im sick of guys actually. i really am ( Read more... )

Today i went to my uncles house that over looks the city. the lights were amazing and when it rained i cant even explain how beautiful it was.i want to go back i mean i could have stayed there all night. sunset was incrediable.i loved it. i wish i coudl have shared a moment like that with someone i think it would have been nice. i want to show ( Read more... )

well that boy i met was pretty great. he made me happy. but i wanted something more. i want someone that wants to come see me who wants a real relationship. i dont think him and i wanted the same things. i was thinking about why i didnt just wait and see what would happen. but then i thought some more,how long am i going to have to wait? i cant ( Read more... )

So on friday i told jared about how i still had feelings for him. i told him how the whole cara shit hurt really bad and he said he never wanted to hurt me. and he really really likes her. and im okay with it. like i cried because i cry over everything. but i feel like i got everything out and now all i want from him is his friendship. like i dont ( Read more... )

i thought i was over jared. its been a long time but i guess not. cara has been talking to him and hes been asking her out. it it still makes me mad that hes doing that. she says she doesnt like him but i dont know shes not one to be honest. hes trying to hook me up with his best firned and we can all go on a double date. i think that would be ( Read more... )

My best friend is really unhappy lately. He acts like hes happy but when he talks to me i know hes not. I told him i wished i could make him happy and he said i do when we talk. but the thing is we hardly talk. I wish there was something i could do becuase i dont like when hes sad. For all i know he could just be making up excuses for me to feel ( Read more... )

I met a new boy. We became best friends the first night we met. He was one of the first boys i was extremly confortable with. I told him some things i havent told my closest girl friends. He is a really fun person to be around. Everytime im with him i cant help but smile. I havent really known him that long but i love this kid. We have our own best ( Read more... )

I miss chantelle. I havent seen her for a while and its kind of strange. A lot happened between me and her and it changed our friendship. i wish it never happened. I think she is worried i have feelings for her. I can honestly say i dont like her in that way. Shes was one of my best friends but ever since it happened things have been awkward. It ( Read more... )

I met a boy and fell in love. I made one stupid mistake and let him go. i thought it was for the best but it only made things worse. This boy is amazing in every way,from the things he says to the things he does. We still talk but its different now. i want to tell him i still love him and i miss him like crazy, but i dont think he feels the same ( Read more... )