I just got back from the worst trip back home. I hate how much everything is changing. I can't stand thinking about losing everything that I care about or hold important in my heart and mind. I don't see how something thats been helping to keep you sane can make you go mad so easily. Well, I take that back. I guesse that without them I no ( Read more... )

its been a long time since i last wrote and i guess i apologize for that. shit gets hectic though, and i dont know... i havent slept in awhile so im getting a little annoyed with that again but oh well... hopefully tonite. man.. i wish i were 18. i really think living on my own would solve at least half of my problems sometimes. i cant stand it ( Read more... )

i fuckin hate life...

me and lexxi had a project to do that ended up being really hard and i feel so bad because she did more of it than me. I'm such a horrible person. Next time, I don't care how much work I have, but I am not going to let her decide to take the bigger part of the progect again. It's not fair:\ Well.... I don't really know what to say here ( Read more... )

im kinda numb and not too into the whole journal thing right now.. just thought id wish everyone a happier night than i...

my sisters out of the hospital at least... no longer getting her morphine and all so thats a good thing, poor kid. everything else is a bit downhill but i guess what can one expect.. lifes shitty and theres nothing you can do . i hate it when you think youre over something then it comes up and you cant even begin to understand how you thought you ( Read more... )

its almost friday all ready, which is good, and to make it even better i get to see maggie tommmorrow:) ive been counting down for like, the past 30 days. Im really glad we get to hang out, it should make shit better for awhile, or at least get my mind off it....

i hate mondays, it reminds me of the whole week ahead and how i wish so bad i just had some days off to actually do something, :\ i dont know.. i wish someone would write

familys are frustrating and im getting pretty sick of mine right now. The sad thing is, is that they have been gone this whole weekend to some conference thing and they only got back like.. 10 minutes ago. Already wered getting tired of one another. Blah, this week is going to be a long one....

today, has been such a bad day.. well actually, i should say night.. i hate being by myself like this, it just gives you way too much time to think. way too much time to realize everything youre missing. i just wish it didnt have to feel like this and that i didnt have to feel all by myself so much.. theres no point on writing on this because no ( Read more... )