days like today it's easy to be chilled to the bone ( Read more... )

life is going fine. by fine i mean amazing.

i am the luckiest.

users, when going through rehab, often have very real dreams about using ( Read more... )

woke up at five am sneezing blood. not exactly a nosebleed, but enough blood to freak me out. i laid in bed for the next hour alternately contemplating the probability of a brain tumor and getting up to run to the bathroom to sneeze my brains out some more. this is weird. i hate missing work for this but it's fucked up to sneeze up blood when ( Read more... )

the weather is indecisive ( Read more... )

stomach, don't fail me ( Read more... )

work really has it out for me. i've been working all week, pulling eight hour shifts nearly every day, and was supposed to work tonight. elizabeth, a coworker who has just returned from a two week vacation to italy (wow, right?), needed the hours and offered to pick up my shift. i said "yes, great, you're awesome" b/c a day off sounded wonderful. ( Read more... )

i'm eating an entire totinos. and then taking a bath. and going to bed before 10pm. yes ( Read more... )

glass frogs live in treetops.
they have translucent skin and translucent hearts that beat anyway.
they are tiny and exposed. and beautiful.

these days have been heavy but important. clarifying. i've been mind bleeding so much. i'm writing all the time, that is, when i'm not reading. now reading the brothers karamazov, a dostoevsky novel. not ( Read more... )

where is this place i have found? this limbo without day or night, this something past eight pm in which i have just awoken from a needed nap to discover darkness and rain pressing at my window, thoughts and memories of you discovering themselves in the corners of my mind ( Read more... )