What a perfect mental image for the upcoming day! I mean, what better way could there be to say it? Only, here I am, nursing, or ignoring, no, nursing, self-created wounds. Self-inflicted burns. Also, J.D. Salinger passed away two days ago. More depressing than the fact that I didn't know until today is the fact that I didn't know he was still ( Read more... )

I never made it past 19.

tattoo shop. the beautiful sound of buzzing needles. ink permeating skin. if only i had someone to pierce...so i read back a couple entries and i knew what was going on all along. this is exactly where i thought i would be. a new band, Rockland County, and an extra bonus prize, an apprenticeship in piercing. also, all the added problems that i knew ( Read more... )

today he is saying goodbye to the clean, untouched skin on his upper right arm and replacing it with the black outlines of a fallen angel. today, he has a full-on beard...and hips to die for. what beauty in the early hours of the morning! tracing his spine, fingertips down the forever long torso. this is february in connecticut.

quickly, now, before class starts. it is slowly becoming a reality that i will make it out of here very soon. i want to make music. so do you, i know. but if we want it bad enough, we'll get it. i need a band. i need to start auditiong. i can't just join the multitude of other college graduates hoping to make some money one of these days. i will, ( Read more... )

hi. it's october and everything changed. everything's different. it didn't have to be, but it is. maybe i wanted to flip things around, or maybe i didn't want it at all. i don't care about not being in the band. i mean i CARE, as in, i love making music and now i'm not and it's killing me. but, i don't care as in, i'm finishing school which is ( Read more... )

i was heading into the drudgery of myspace when i realized that livejournal was still here. in fact, it had been here all along and now it's quiet and i like it a whole lot better. i need to write. i need to express something. it's begging to be let out but i haven't been able to find it in so long. the summer is a killer. maybe it always will be. ( Read more... )

when i was little, i never thought about a lot of things. i never wondered why some people were good and others were bad. i never considered the way stars form constellations. i never wondered if everything would be alright, or if i would fall in love, or how a culmination of terrible and amazing things could happen to form this older, better (?) ( Read more... )

it's been exhausting, this semester. busy every moment, but listen to this: there is something truly amazing happening. this making music thing seems to be working out quite well. and who could have imagined having only been a band for a few months, barely it seems, and things happening already? i won't lie. i've been holding back a bit, just in ( Read more... )

sugar rush. too many neccos. going crazy. i need to get down to that fucking darkroom this instant. it should be 24 HOUR USAGE. i have been sitting here playing with the devil (myspace) for like an hour. all i want to do is stop going to school and start touring. i've got my camera all wrapped up in a silk leopard print hankerchief. i've got so ( Read more... )