could someone offer me some space from their domain for a while so i could post some photographs and something here? i have no place where to put them now. i would be so grateful. my site isn't working and i think it takes forever to make it work again i don't know what's wrong. it's frustrating.

i feel like deleting this journal, to give a chance to myself to be weak this time. but i don't know what to do, or what to say, everything just feels so wrong. i can't sleep.

what i want to do is, i want to dye my hair black and cut it short and i want to run away with a girl with black hair and take her hand and kiss her hand and i want to buy sonic youth albums and steal books from library and i want to make everything simple again. i hate it how everything is so complicated, i hate it. i wish everything could just ( Read more... )

first of all, merry christmas you, beautiful ones!

i just realised it's 23rd day.

i wish i had a twinsister. i could take photographs of her and she could take photographs of me and we could hold hands and sing along to the songs on the radio. we could fight, i'd like to fight with someone who's kind of the other half of me, and i could love her and love myself at the same time. she could be my threat and i could be hers, we ( Read more... )

i wish it was tomorrow, these exams make me so exhausted and angry and i'm in a bad mood and at times far too excited and i'm full of energy and then i come crashing down and it's very uncomfortable. and there's so much everything in my mind that just doesn't belong there, so much "if - i could be happy" thoughts, and i'm just getting tired with ( Read more... )

( please answer, what do you feel when you love someone? )

thank you for answering,

and to me love is like dancing on stars,
when you have forgot your shoes home and it's too beautiful to
go back and you can't, but the stars are burning and you learn to love it.

sometimes, not always, i wish i could just stop everything around me, all these people making noises, talking, communicating so loudly. i wish i could walk in silence, without anyone around following me, without any need to walk by anyone or walk over anyone, anyone of these people i'm terribly afraid of now ( Read more... )

i made a new icon and i don't really know what i'd like to do at the moment. there's something wrong with my site, or actually with the domain, and my site is down. i took some photographs today but can't put them here. frustrating ( Read more... )

and after a horrible and negative day i have this feeling, i want to kiss everyone, on cheek and girls on lips maybe, some girls. and feeling, it's only a feeling but a step toward something more real i think. and it matters something yes it does. the loveliest feeling! girls can't describe it better and boys don't understand ( Read more... )