today ( Read more... )

good day - will go tanning in a bit.
- had a V8
- bottle of water

watching the documentary THIN as thinspo... watching people "recover" (aka. get fat) and reminding myself why i can't get caught.

let's try to struggle through the rest of the day.

today
tanning - good
nothing to eat - 1 litre of water
i have to withstand valentine's dinner with my boyfriend... i don't know what to do.

i need to get myself under control.
don't be such a loser

today i went tanning (look thinner when tanned - check)
i had:
- a v8
- a stirfry with only veggies and noodles (left most of the noodles)
- diet coke
- sparkling citrus drink (0 cal)
- handful of pinenuts

it's snacking that is getting to me... it's the handful of almonds here, and the popcorn there that are terrible... because you think it's fine... but ( Read more... )

i'm back.. i'm trying. again ( Read more... )

i'm in a new place. i started at a new school. i'm in a residence with hundreds of other people. i'm not special.
i haven't posted in a while. my exboyfriend was getting asked about my health, and he started accusing me. so we broke up.
this year will be different.

long time no write... i find when i don't write here, i lose it... so i'm going to make sure i write every day this summer... because i can tell this summer might be a tough one ( Read more... )

i weighed myself.
i'm 120.
that's 20 lbs away...
how?
by not being sick and weak anymore.

sooooo... today was ok. since it's easter, it's going to be a tough weekend. HOWEVER, since i'm vegan now, i have convinced everyone to let me make my own food, with only healthy stuff. smartest move ever ( Read more... )

today i promise myself it's going to be a good day. i took my diet pill - a new one i'm trying... called slimquick - and i've had a piece of gum, and i'm drinking a bottle of flavoured water. i have class from 2:30-7... so i think i should be good, as long as i can make it through my break in class without eating anything. maybe i'll bring a couple ( Read more... )