I don't know how it came to be that I am almost 23 years old. I have been re-reading old entries, and so much has changed so drastically in the last couple of years. So many things about who I am and what I want out of life have become unclear. I dropped out of college because it was too stressful and expensive. I've quit job after job. I started ( Read more... )

traveled coast to coast.
now what?
south bend is making me feel stuck and lonely.
i just want to do something right for myself. i want to be somebody beautiful. not scandalous, not dramatic. beautiful.
tired of wasting my time.
tired of dreaming about being somewhere else everywhere i go. i need to get my shit together and learn how to be happy.

Everything is about boys ( Read more... )

broke up with my boyfriend of one year.
have no life.
because my life was with him.

sleeping on my moms couch.
feeling like a coward because her roommate abuses her kid in all kinds of ways.
and i don't know what to do about it.

trying to get my life back on track.
but im not sure it ever was on track.

Blah.

my uterus might have exploded, i think.
feel like absolute death.
and the car did explode.
not sure how im going to get to school/work.
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too many lovers in one lifetime aint good for you.

im staying cool.
relaxed.
put together.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so vals comment to my last post got me on a mind rant. and im going to let off a little steam right here, right now ( Read more... )

i stopped posting when i started having sex ( Read more... )

signify the end of an era it would ( Read more... )