People tell you to follow your heart and to do what makes you happy. I've tried to do this in my lifetime. It seems now that when I do what makes me happy, it makes "them" angry and hurts "them" and makes "them" want to hate me. Maybe I should stop. Maybe I should disappear. Those two things are seriously being considered. People here are learning ( Read more... )

Things are always changing and rearranging. Things aren't going how I wish that they would go. I don't know where I am. I don't know what I want or how I feel. I don't know what the people around me want. It's so unsure. I can't read them. I can't see what's right to do in all of these situations. I'm so nervous all the time...nothing seems all ( Read more... )

Where are things going now? I can hardly remember where I intend to go with my life. People are trying to push me away and some are trying desperately to hold on. I don't know where to be. I don't know who with. I am lost, dazed, confused and scared. The one who only wants me to stay so that their plan goes right is more afraid than me, I believe. ( Read more... )

I've really missed my best friend recently. He just graduated and it made me cry. I couldn't believe he was almost leaving. I have to go to school without him and everything. I'm not used to it yet, and I don't really enjoy the time alone, now. There are a few people who believe that I treat him like shit for one reason. To you who believe it... ( Read more... )

I just realized that I was listening to the same song on my last post, which was forever ago. When I made my post today I intended to put "numb" as my mood, but then I saw nervous and thought it to be more appropriate. Whoa...yeah, that scares me. I just thought it was phenomenal. Goodbye, again.

Well, here I go with another summer. I'm finished with school. I have a puppy if I haven't already mentioned this and he does well. He's growing a little bit and starting to understand the rules ( Read more... )

Today I'm noticing things more often than normal. I see the little things that my best friend does just to see a smile run across my face. I see how hard he tries. I see myself, and the way that I run away from love that could be. I know that this is wrong. I loved him then and I love him now. He may never know it, because I've grown so afraid to ( Read more... )

Quite a weekend it's been. Went camping Friday night, which was my first time since childhood and it was an amazing time. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of it, everyone. The next morning, I went to work thinking it would be a normal day. Instead, it turned into training for my new position, which I am thoroughly pleased about! I'm a ( Read more... )

I have to be honest with everyone...that was the best birthday I've ever had. I want to thank everyone for being so sneaky and doing all of that for me. Andy, thank you, especially for what you did. Everyone was so good to me...and for the first time, it didn't rain on my birthday. Jason I'm sorry that I missed you at Waffle House last night. They ( Read more... )

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