plain and simple, I hate myself, I hate work, I hate feeling empty, I hate love. I hope that Noelle doesn't read this out of curiousity. I can't stand not haveing her in my life but I can't stand talking to her either. I just feel like every conversation is meant to make me feel like shit. I've only made cetain choices because I'm trying to ( Read more... )

So Yeah, the band is doing well. All four of us hung out tonight and it was pretty awesome. I knew that Zach would like him. I just had a feeling. Noelle and I are on a break. That's not so great news. I honestly do think that it'll be good for us, but I can't stand the thought of not being with her. It really hurts to think about it, but ( Read more... )

I was really looking forward to moving out of the house. I still am, but it seems that after I get put on my own car insurance plan, the cheaptest deal I'll get is 836/month or 4500/6 months! I don't understand. yeah I've had two bad wrecks, but I know people who have had worse records than myself and they managed. It just really pisses me off ( Read more... )

What is it that we all want? I'll tell you, ATTENTION! That's why we have live journals isn't it?

I don't spend alot of my time on the net. I work, I play music, I watch TV, and mostly chat it up on the phone wit my girl. Well, I dialed on this evening to catch up on a few things. The usual stuff you know, like myspace, e-mail, etc. Anyway, I get to LiveJournal and I begin to browse on my friends list, and work my way down. Everyone has ( Read more... )

So it's that wonderful time of the year yet again, and I haven't written in a long time. I've been fairly busy, but one can never be too busy to wish all of his friends a Merry Christmas. For those of you who know me well, you know that this is my favorite time of year. I love the corniness that comes with the holiday season. I love the ( Read more... )

So it's been a week since my surgery and I must say that I'm feeling pretty good. Occasionally, I get a pain in the back of my throat, but I'm afriad that I'll never sing again. Ok, so that last part I'm not so sure about. Anyway, I haven't felt this good in a long time and I owe it all to my special girl, Noelle. She really did pull me out of ( Read more... )

Well, I had surgery today and all I want is to be able to talk so I can hear Noelle's voice. I wish she was with me right now. Her touch would make me feel a whole lot better. Oh well, at least I have her to look forward to. That's just all the more reason to heal up fast. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her. I LOVE YOU NOELLE ( Read more... )

I really do hate the internet. The only reason I ever get on is to check my e-mail in hopes that Noelle has written me, check Noelle's LJ in hopes that she has written something that I'm actually alowed to read, get on AIM to talk to Noelle, or to write on this stupid thing, and the only reason I write on here is because I look at it as a way to ( Read more... )

So as you can read, it's 2:44 AM and I haven't been able to catch a wink of sleep. I called Noelle earlier tonight but didn't really get to talk to her because she was at a party. I missed talking to her. I told her to have a good time because I really did want her to, she deserves it, but I still worried. I have an over active imagination and ( Read more... )