Friends only from now on. I can't seem to have privacy anywhere since I have people obsessed over me. And also so I know that you actually want to read me. xx

If you have the guts, which I reckon you don't, why don't you just leave your name? Naz you are worthless and pathetic blabla, no seriously please tell me something new, do you think any of that is insulting to me? It isn't, and I'm sure you meant to insult me ( Read more... )

To some people I know self destruction is a phase in their lives, something bad, for awhile, for their grandoise moment. To me its become me, part of me, a fact of life, that this heart can't cooperate with the mind, and that this soul is splitting in this skin. But amidst all this, I am quietly content with things such as littering my room with ( Read more... )

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A mermaid wiggles with ungraceful tail and smooth arms across the tv screen, and on snowy mountain tops sufi mystics are twirling with their cool turkish tophats. I shout 'Turkey!' and absorb those images, the beaches and the dancers and everything. I wanna be that mermaid. Y'know, I've the most brilliant people surrounding me and we're jsut stuck ( Read more... )

I've been calm and destructive, so it doesn't feel like I'm being the latter, which is great ( Read more... )

He messages me that he has nightmares. He doesn't reply my messages after that. My contacts are drying up and my hair is blown all over. I'm tired. I have a three hour paper, and I'm going to go in there, feel miserable, flunk it and repeat my year at college. I've never repeated any year. I don't fucking want to. I need some breakfast. And a ( Read more... )

Smoking in my room makes me dizzy. Quietly claustrophobic ( Read more... )

he is not like the others ( Read more... )

Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
No recess
You're in high school again