S (2:38:28 PM): whatchya up to

t (2:39:06 PM): not much trying to figure out the meaning of life, ect...the usual…

t (2:39:08 PM): lol

S (2:40:32 PM): haha, that's a hefty thing to ponder

S (2:41:41 PM): did you figure it out yet?

t (2:42:42 PM): not yet...everytime i get close the equation changes...lol...ill keep u posted J

Soo ya the meaning of ( Read more... )

So I turned 22… its weird… right now in my life there is soo much going through my head and soo much going on in my life it makes my head spin. In about 5 weeks I will graduate and leave LMU … the place I have spent the past 4 years growing, changing, and facing life… I will be leaving everything I’ve known here on this bluff and ( Read more... )

      I just cant fall asleep...im trying to break this fever...my dad left today from his visit...it was an intresting weekend...alot of thinking...Where am I going with my life? What marks have I made in the past 4 years?... Still need my liscence, need to find a job and focus, definetlly not healthy or forgive me for saying it skinny enough... ( Read more... )

I feel so drained right now...from everything...school, parents, friends, dz... everything just seems to be weighing me down to no end... I'm having such anxiety and stress over school, I have so much to do and no time at all to cram all the information into my head. My parents are constantly on me about my future plans and graduation is almost ( Read more... )

Hmmmm…. So tonight was AMAZING, we had GAME NIGHT…I spent a butt load of $$$ I don’t have but as soon as the party started it kinda became worth it… Literally everyone in the room was someone that I loved … It was soo much fun…food, drinking games, jungle juice, catch phrase, silly string… And soo much laughter… There is nothing like a room full of ( Read more... )

Things have been kinda off as of late I'm comming off of a week of pure happiness and smiles...that along with other stuff has resulted in my current state of ... unsettled saddness....so yah......
I dont know, I'm working to get back the happy... its just sometimes life throws you a curve ball and it hits you in the stomache and its hard to recover ( Read more... )

Finally finished packing…I’m getting really good at packing loads and loads of stuff into small spaces at the last minute…lol…In exactly 12 hrs I will be back in LA….thank goodness…I had my highlights darkened I think they’ll do for now…we’ll see…Paul passed away today I called Uncle Alan and Crystal…It felt so weird knowing he wont be there for ( Read more... )

                It’s weird… the old me would let things get to her and expect others to notice, and it came to a point where I became annoying to everyone …even myself…Flash forward to the current me and I’d rather not make my friends fed up with me… It’s almost like a regression of sorts…but I just don’t want to be a problem or a nuisance…

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Even though my New Year’s Eve was most likely the worst ever I decided that instead of thinking that I started the new year off with what happened I ended the past year…And now its behind me…. I don’t want to let what others think and do affect me even if they are my father… I have learned that there is no one in my life who I can depend on ( Read more... )

... I wish I had followed my heart and gone back to LA... I dont know why things had to happen the way they did... I stayed in bed and got up at 9:30 when my dad and mom came home with friends a lil tispy. To my horror my dad being a lil buzzed, proceeded to tell everyone in the room as well as question me about why I picked such a dead end majors ( Read more... )