so yeah..i changed my display image for on here, and it looks like shit frow where i had to shrink it down. but oh well..you get the point i suppose. im so tired. i need a nap, but if i take a nap now, i might as well go to bed, haha its only 6pm too, im pathetic. im going to make my hair curly tomorrow, and erin and i are going to do something fun ( Read more... )

i hate my life. it blows ass.

so yeah..i just watched crazy/beautiful and that movie makes me cry a lot. so obviously..i just cried a lot. we also just got our christmas tree, and its huge..its about 9-10ish feet tall..and fluffy, and takes up about a third of our living room. it smells good though, even though the dog peed on it...way to go dog. one of my friends is pissed at ( Read more... )

well hmm..i still havent found the ring i lost, and even though it was one of my faves, im starting to get used to the feel of it not being there..i kind of wish that sentence applied to other things in my life too. i had to leave school early yesterday because i od'd on zoloft and starting throwing up like crazy..so carla called my mom and my mom ( Read more... )

this little hair or whatever in my eye hurts a lot. my eye is all watery and shit...i wish it would like..cry out all ready. it hurts. ok so anyway...i think today is gonna be one of those suck my ass, wish i wasnt awake kind of days. i say this with good reason. i woke up at 3pm. so all ready my day has gone to shit, because i slept through most ( Read more... )

i managed to lose one of my favorite rings...lets see how long it takes to find it shall we? im not sure how this happened..ive been sitting here at my computer all afternoon and all night..piece of shit.. i hate this..grrr...here ring ring ring ring..i feel totally naked...i usually have on 7, and now i only have 6...ugh..im dying. this is killing

sometimes i think i piss jake off just so that we can talk for longer. i dont mean to. i just...i guess i just feel more safe..feel more of everything when i am talking to him, or around him. i like the way he makes me feel, even if we are fighting and i end up crying. i like that he makes me feel. i like that i am a different person because of him ( Read more... )

he makes me want to run away. im always so pathetic and unworthy. im trashy, im expensive, im a smartass, im out of control..i am so many things to him..and he acts like im ruining his life. he has no idea what he does to mine. he screams at the television during the news, and during sporting events, even if we are all trying to sleep. he just ( Read more... )

im a whore. or atleast i feel like one, and i havent even done anything. im a worthless friend. im ugly. i hate myself. i wish i were dead. life would be so much easier for a lot of people i hurt every day, if i just werent around to hurt them any more. i miss being happy, but i doubt if i will ever be as happy as when i was younger and everything ( Read more... )

fuck it. i fucking quit.