and I try to find those boys, the ones who are nothing ( Read more... )

so I've been up late thinking, as usual ( Read more... )

It's the first day of 2008. I decided I don't want to forget what I did this year, so I'm going to make an effort to update whenever I can ( Read more... )

remember that night I was crying and you came to get me in the stop and shop parking lot? you asked me why I was crying and I refused to tell you. well, I was crying for you. a part of me always will ( Read more... )

livejournal is no fun when you only use it to rant ( Read more... )

sometimes I feel like its easier to be sad. I don't really know how to explain it, but I feel safer when I'm sad..almost comforted in a way. Being happy takes so much out of me because I know something wrong is bound to happen soon. I feel like I'm always waiting for something. I guess all you do in life is wait. I'm waiting to comfortably be happy ( Read more... )

I have so much anger inside. I'm sick of being let down. I want to eliminate all the people in my life that SUCK. I can count my friends, but I can't count on them ( Read more... )

There have been so many times I wanted to tell you I love you, but I've just been so afraid. I don't want to lose you or the friendship we have. I try so hard to keep you in my life, but I never know if that's where you want to be. I've trapped you in my heart, and I don't want to let you out. I don't want to ever let go of you, and I probably ( Read more... )

sooooooooo....

I LOVE HIM

I have for so many years, and it hurts.

what do you do when the person who is in your heart has someone else in their's?

so I noticed I only use livejournal to rant when I'm extremely miserable and have no one to turn to. now is one of those moments. so during spring break I get a sinus infection and have to stay in bed all week. during that week, I made a million realizations about everything in my life. I feel like I gained the ability to see right through people, ( Read more... )