i remember i used to write everything down.. somewhere i stopped. im not sure why.. now its like i have so much to say that i dont know where to start. my baby lucy of course takes up most all of my time right now... its so awesome spending all my time with her, i get to see her growing and getting smarter and its so crazy, even though i know that ( Read more... )

i feel so different. its always like this every few months. nothing is constant but change... i know this but yet there are still things i dont want to change, ever. but they do and they will. i just hope its for the better ( Read more... )

ive been trapped in the real world. not constantly connected to the internet and lately not even connected to a phone ( Read more... )

i could download music... i could smoke some more... i could bug andre while he sleeps next to me [but hes mad at me right now..] i could munch on something right about now... i could get my headphones and listen to something.... i could write a good entry in here... i could watch a movie online...
but im too lazy and have no patience right now.  
i ( Read more... )

ive been kind of seeing someone else...
its tumblr.

but i still like you better because its more personal with you...
i hope we can still be friends.
-lauren noelle 
http://openwiide.tumblr.com/

 maybe im not who i thought i was. maybe im not as strong as i thought i was...
for all the shit ive been through in my life, that second sentence is partially untrue. but he... makes me weak. physically, mentally.. im broken down when it comes to him. i dont know why. i can list numerous reasons, all pointing to why i should just move on. but love ( Read more... )

so, my life has changed ( Read more... )

you know what im realizing ( Read more... )

This year went by quick. Damn quick. A lot of good things came out of it though.. like my first real relationship since adrian. I didn't think I could even really love again but I can & I hope it stays this way forever ( Read more... )

i think i know what im doing now.
ugh.
i just hope i didnt make a mistake.

i think im over thinking things. if things dont change i can just [try] to move on.

i just hope they do because i want no one else in the world. just my boyfriend. :)


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