I've decided this new "friendship" that we have struck up, will be a good thing. I figure the Lord has a purpose for everything He allows into our life and that how we choose to deal with it affects the outcome of it all. So I am deciding to use this opprtunity to patch up my heart and move out of obsession. (How mature of me!!) This life we lead ( Read more... )

It's funny to me how you never really know...ANYTHING! Like...you think your done with something, you think something ot someone is gone forever and you finally begin to feel at peace and...WHAM!!!! They are contacting you again. I realize the word says "There is nothing new under the sun" so why am I surprised??? I dunno, I just am. How can you ( Read more... )

Someone asked in a comment on my last post, who I was talking to. I guess that's a good question. In my blog thingy I mostly just talk out loud, sometimes to God, sometimes just to get it all out of me. I have an anonymous blog because I can't say what I really think or feel if I am "known" I can't handle the judgements I guess! I am addressing ( Read more... )

It's the start of a new Year...I am hoping a better year...I always hope for a better year. This time I resolve to get closer to the Lord...to take His hand and be led by Him a little more often..to try to trust more because I seem to have lost that. Been thinking of you of course, how are you?? Is your walk with Him improving?? I hope so. Are you ( Read more... )

It's over already. But pretty painless. Kinda like pulling a bandaid off-it barely hurt atall atall. He could tell I wasn't "in love" So what could I say?? "No you're wrong?" I think he knew I was still saving all my kisses for you...silly huh? Saving up for something you have zero intention of getting. Because I would never date you. I know it ( Read more... )

I have a boyfriend and it isn't you. I think of you more now than ever. I compare him unfavorably to you and it is ruining everything!! Why can't I let you go once and for all!! It's not that I even want you back but the memory of the times we had, the laughter and the sense of ease, the peace and completeness I felt when I was with you...I just ( Read more... )

When will I get over you?? When will I stop thinking every song is about us? You never think of me anymore...I always think of you. I can't even manage to like anyone who likes me. I can only think of you. Please don't come back here. Please stay away.

Amazingly, I have been pretty happy lately, content with myself and really really okay. I love watching the Olympics! I feel the Lord talking to me about what it is to press on and be a victor, or even just to try...

I made an honest mistake recently... I know he thinks I was doing something stupid on purpose but it really was a freaky mistake...uhhh!!!! I HATE that...anyway, we don't really talk so I can't explain and I think it would make it worse anyway so..whatever!! The thing about it that bugs is... why do I still care after all this time?? Everything ( Read more... )

I started this journal because my life felt like it was stopped. Like I had been on the merry-go -round and somebody grabbed the bar and held it still. I was still dizy but now I was stopped. I had to look around at what my life was made of. I am growing into the newer happier me ( crazy summer this has been) but it's all ok because I know God can ( Read more... )