Has it ever dawned upon you that all along you really have no friends at all....that all the friends you speak of are all of part a game....pieces thrown in there to make believe you have something to live for...that everything they say like " ill alwaz be your friend no matter what!!", or " Your friendship is more imp to me than anything" is all ( Read more... )

Ok....understanding is out of the picture....im to lost for my own good....i thought i could make it less confusing and get all this bullshit sorted out but you know im guessing that that wasnt what was meant to be....it was meant to be all fucked up and pissy in the end..im to tired to explain myself anymore....its getting to the point where when ( Read more... )

Its really not funny the way most of my friends are talking right now...seriously it sux to know that another one of my friends is talking suicidal and knowing ive lost many friends over shit like this...and eveyone of them talked to me the same way.....but they did it anyway...it seems no one cares.....they want to give up and throw away ( Read more... )

Ook well life eventually found a way to get better but surprised me at a dead end once again!!! Friends suck ass....they seriously know how to get on someones nerves.....O wait i might be lying you never know...see i have a problem....im a compulsive liar.....i dont have medication for it so it gets worse from time to time....The odd thing is its ( Read more... )

Ok wow life is sooo fucking boring...its pointless to be here....nothing in this world is right......Maybe if i wish for better things to come...they will!!!Nah I doubt it.....

Ok well this summer offically sucks ass! Nothing looks as it seems....things are at a constant change.....yesterday was the worst day ever....i did something i didnt want to do but in all aspects had to be done....Forever will life look the same..I THINK NOT!.....When things seem to be going right....they end up as shit...ha i guess its oh well to ( Read more... )

Come notice me ( Read more... )

O garsh...so many cd's i want ( Read more... )

DO YOU CALL MY NAME-RA ( Read more... )

Things seem to be getting better...well a lil better...its taking time tho..I actually got to see ray for 2 hours today!! :-D It was great!! We jus sat in my room looking at old pictures and crap...we talked alot to...(Some not so good conversations aswell but we worked a lot of shit out(mostly about all the stuff we talked about courtney ( Read more... )