Reading some of this old shit has brought back some funny and awful memories. Damn im glad i don't talk to sarah anymore. Reading up on the 15 friends in my life was great, actually felt really moved by it. Also, damn i was a pussy back in the day. I never swore, i let bitches trample on me and i acted as if God was gonna do all the work for me ( Read more... )

Who saw me being used? I usually check all paths to make sure im not getting fucked over and now i do my usually friendly behavior and im driving all over the place because im being played as a fucking fool. This can't be really happening....

Why is nothing going right? I don't have a norm anymore. My friends are changing, my money situation is completely different, im not in miner anymore, new coach, new team, new classes ( Read more... )

Ok last 2 weeks ago my stress level hit 12 on a scale of 10 i was thinking about quitting track, i was worried about everything, sarah was back and i really just wanted to roll into a ball and die ( Read more... )

So i'm just suppose to deal with it huh? Don't question God just be patient and let him do what he has to do. How long do i have to wait and why can't i question him? Why can't i try and figure things out instead of just waiting for shit to happen? Why do you always drag me down to think my religious beliefs are stupid? Why would you dare call ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think anymore.

Ok so this is the first time i admit anything relative to this....i think i might be bipolar or some other form of depression. I've had very strange sleeping patterns for the last 2 years, some nights 2 hours of sleep others over 14. For example this weekend i was getting 12 or more hours of sleep per day, sleeping pass 2pm, which i never do. ( Read more... )

ok so this weekend of vacation i devoted to videogames, i played a total of 30 hours so far and there is still about 4 hours before my night class and i haven't decided what im going to do with that time. I think im more than half done the game, it's a really long game.

Problems with the roommate
Problems with the old girl
Problems with the new girl
Problems with the family

really just don't know what to do so im backing off. God has this one and im going to pray this through. I'm alone with weekend so im just going to chill, play video games and relax

Today was a little stressful. Not more than usually just plain stressful. I had practice today from which i had to run back to my room and take a shower. Then i ran down to Garlock to get food but i didn't want to wait in any lines so i just made a mac salad type thing. From Garlock i went to class from 6:30 to about 9:30 and then i came back ( Read more... )