being sick sucks i feel like ass. It's not that im like coughing up a storm or anything it's just i always feel like i have to sneeze and my body is so drained. I got a ton of sleep last night...a 3 hour nap this afternoon and im still tired.

Well ignoring that fact that im really tired it was a really good weekend. Well not amazing or anything but it was good. I got to see Molly and Greg which was cool. I wish Greg stayed longer but he came middle of yesterday afternoon and left at about 9ish. I got to see Molly and she's one of my favorites. She's really funny and fun to be with ( Read more... )

im happy for things that are happening right now and the seeds i am planting. Maybe ill get in more detail at sometime but for now ill be vague. Things just might be starting to work i finally feel again, im not calyst anymore...well for the time being at least. I don't know where this road is going or if it's going where i want it to but hey, ( Read more... )

Why is it that all the things im trying to escape from back home follow me here. I hate this shit i just want to let go of this stuff and never have to look back at it. I don't want the same friends with different mask i want a new life, i want new friends and i want a new start. I'm sick of having to deal with the same shit different day. I ( Read more... )

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somedays the thought of her drives me nuts. Others i can move on and pretend like i didn't see her. I don't get this. Keep praying for me maybe this will be understood sooner than i think.

ok sooo it's not going to be easy. I didn't have to see her for friday and saturday. It seemed like the only 2 days i didn't see her face to face and saturday i didn't see her at all, which i feel was a good thing ( Read more... )

im getting all worked up for nothing. I need to step back and stop this before it overwhelms me. Enough bs time to straighten out my life not let little crap confuse me.

Ok so i've gone out everyday for the last about...5 days for a walk or two praying to God. Basically this is what i've asked ( Read more... )