lost my job yesterday. i haven't been jobless since 1981, and at 50 years old, not quite 24 hours since it happened i am devastated ( Read more... )

thanksgiving
neil finn
cloud
beach
coconut
dogs
snuggling
grass
badmitton
germany
baseball
roasted corn
sea salt
van gogh
mission/frank lloyd wright
silver
up all night
seabiscuit
cherries
quiet
braids

who would have thunk it ( Read more... )

crazy. i swear it comes earlier each year. christmas has arrived on tv and in macy's. gotta grab it while you can. in my case, it's grab it early so you can begin to pay it off ( Read more... )

had a very real dream last night that felt almost like a vivid memory. back in 1982, shortly after starting my first job at the bank ( Read more... )

i went the seasonal part time job route again this year. kohl's was such a bad experience last year and so was the gap years prior. this time i felt i HAD to do it, financially. this time i chose macy's and so far it seems to have been a very good choice ( Read more... )

why, after all this time, do i think of you? after everything i know and everything that's happened (especially how long ago it happened), why? do you deserve it, or is this my punishment ( Read more... )

Crowded House - Pour Le Monde Lyrics

He imagines the world
As the angels sending
Not the ghost of a man
Who is tied up to the chair

And he wants to believe
That his life has a meaning
With his hand on his heart
Pour le monde, pas pour la guerre
And I wake up blind
Like my dreams were too bright
And I lost my regard
For the good things that I had
And the radio ( Read more... )

maybe someday

so unhappy, so unsettled. my security blanket is more than frayed - it is shredded. just want to sleep...