amazing, the people you see in a grocery store..... uhh I dunno... like.... biological fathers for instance... or ex-stalkers......... or "ex-stalk-ees". The store has become a gathering place for all the wierd ass people of this world... I guess myself being one of them ( Read more... )

I'm screwed. There are TWO effing performing arts high schools in NYC. ONE of which I cannot attend because next year I will not be a sophomore. So I'm limited to PPAS. BUTTT.... at PPAS you have to have an address in which you live at in NY BEFORE you can even audition. So that creates yet another problem. So what if I do find a place to live and ( Read more... )

I wrote a blog.... then a freakin pop-up come up and erased it. freakin aye.

here's the jist of it:

ripped jeans are incredibly comfortable.
..............wow.
everyone should own a pair.

I'm happy, just not satisfied..... I'm lonely yet loved.... I'm living to the fullest, while actually kind of dying on the inside ( Read more... )

I don't even feel like blogging- I feel like talking but since it's later on in the night I really don't want to bug anyone.... but anywhoo.... the show went exremely well tonight! like....woah. the disneys were there as well as carol and lelia who are just as important to me as salome. oh.... there is just so much to say. i feel like scraming just ( Read more... )

It's kind of strange writing on a computer again. I got so used to for the longest time writing things I was thinking down on papers that are now scattered around my room. They're just lost thoughts now, but I guess that's ok with me. Aceptance is key. Acceptance as well as forgiveness I suppose. Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't that what we're ( Read more... )

...That I miss you ( Read more... )

"You'll discover that real love is millions of miles past falling in love with anyone or anything. When you make that one effort to feel compassion instead of blame or self-blame, the heart opens again and continues opening ( Read more... )

.... when words or being silly about something wont bring back that piece of someone... Now I know what it's like on the other side... not knowing what to say to someone to make it ok. Or maybe it's the dissapointment of knowing that nothing I say will make it ok. Now I can look into my bestfriend's eyes and see that she is not whole... and I know ( Read more... )

OMG......... I must be mad at the world. I don't actually fel like witing but instead venting I guess. Ugh it just makesme so angry.. things n general are just making me angry... including this stupid keyboard that screws up ever two seconds... but I'm too lazy go to back and fix things. I feel li screaming... or crying... I think I'm due for a ( Read more... )