life is just one big mess of love, laughter, silliness, hard work, dedication, difficult times, and memories that last a lifetime.

dont waste it.

yes im upset
dont just take over my damn friends

jerk

remember when WE used to be friends?!

yeah we were the best of friends for a while.
but i guess that didnt last.

ultimately, yes, i am jealous.
and yes i'm crying right now.

way to kick me when i was already down...
A+ for that jackass.

my future wedding must consist of two songs ( Read more... )

does that have any significance to you? it does to me. i want to be able to look back on my life and say "YES! I SURE DID LIVE MY LIFE FOR GOD. IT WASNT WASTED AT ALL." but right now i dont feel like i could say that. sure i have had a great life so far and i will be lucky to be able to live more of it, but am i really living it for the Lord? Or ( Read more... )

its a drop in my stomach
followed by a rapid twist and turn

i hate it.

and tonight was wonderful, i'm not going to let something like this ruin it.
no no no.

(WARNING: this is really long & meant for me to just write & write & relieve stress. dont read it all, i ramble.)this world is too much for me to understand ( Read more... )

call me crazy but i'm sensing that Jesus is coming back soon. & what if i dont get married by then? what if i don't have kids by then? and what if i dont find the love of my life by then ( Read more... )

...but i'd rather be writing ( Read more... )

i'm listening to Carrie Underwood's new cd and a song came on about how her fiance died. (i think it was her fiance, maybe it was her husband, idk) but it really made me think.

we think we have forever with our friends, families, and lovers. BUT WE DON'T.

in Carrie's song, she says "Baby why'd you leave me? Why'd you have to go? I was counting on ( Read more... )

it always amazes me how shallow some people can be.
i miss my best friends.
i miss our deep conversations.

i want to go horseback riding, into the sunset.
and just escape from everything. just for a little while.

i want to be free.

i always thought that leaving home and going away to college would be the best thing i could do for myself. to get away ( Read more... )